Barry Allen/Flash Imagines

You belong with me part 2

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-------------------------------------------------------After storming out of Barry's apartment, you ran as fast as your legs could take you. Street signs were passing out of your peripherals and people were striding through the busy Central City night life.  With your heart racing, your head pounding, and your chest heaving, you eventually found yourself back at your apartment. You slammed the door closed and threw yourself on the couch.

The pain of heartbreak and rejection was consuming; consuming you like snow does to the lively outdoors in the winter. One phrase stayed in your mind while you laid on the couch in a heap of tears and pain.

  la douleur exquise

You were told this phrase by adults in your life. "Oh, you'll experience it sometime," they all said. Everyone of them had a different experience, a different story, but, one thing in common was the shared heartbreak.

  ~

For you la douleur exquise  felt almost impossible to overcome.

  For weeks you didn't show up to STAR Labs because the thought of having to see Barry terrified you into oblivion. Weeks then turned into months and you eventually resigned from your position on Team Flash. You didn't cut the ties completely; you still kept in contact with Caitlin and Cisco and you would go see them when Barry wasn't there.

After six lonely months, you finally made your presence in the dating world again.  You went on many dates, most of them boring and drawn out, but, some could've had a promising future. No matter who you were on a date with, whether it was good or bad, something never felt right. All of the guys were perfect gentlemen, but, they weren't him. They weren't Barry and they never would be.

  "I am over him. I know I am. He didn't feel the same way and he never will," you muttered to yourself every time before a date. It didn't matter how many times you attempted to convince yourself of this, your heart never listened. It still longed for Barry's attention and Barry's love.

~

  Today, you had another date planned. This was actually the third date that you have been on with this guy and you genuinely enjoyed the time you spent with him. Joshua made you forget about Barry, even though they had some similarities. Tall, intelligent, and awkward, but, maybe you had a type. When you were with Joshua, you could actually see a long relationship in the future and the thought made you happy for the first time in a long time. A knock on your door shook you out of your thoughts. You opened the door and there stood a giddy Joshua.

  "(Y/N), a-are you ready," Joshua stuttered as he ran his hand through his hair. You nodded and pressed a quick kiss to his cheek. His cheeks flushed red as he wrapped his arm around your waist and escorted you out of your apartment.

After a short car ride  filled with loving looks and small talk, you arrived at Jitters. Joshua hesitantly grabbed your hand, still terrified that you would pull away in disgust. You offered him a loving smile and walked to an empty table.  Sitting at the table with Joshua and making small talk made you think back to the possible future with him and you smiled. A few moments of silence had passed after that, leaving you in your thoughts until you were brought back to reality by Joshua's hand grabbing yours.  He looked into your eyes longingly but quickly looked away.

"(Y/N), I know that this is our third date, but,  I feel like I could see something happening between us in the future. And I know that this m-may seem a little quick, b-but, I was wondering if you would like to be my girlfriend? I mean, you don't have to if you don't want to," he quickly stammered out. You looked at him in the eyes once again and smiled, "I would really enjoy that."Joshua broke into a smile that ranged from ear to ear and he leaned over the table, planting a kiss on your lips. You broke the kiss and looked behind Joshua and saw him.

Him.

Of course he was here. The moment that he is not the one thing that you think about, he shows up again and ruins it. Barry saw you and looked at you in a shocked manner. He looks as if he had just seen a ghost. After Barry's shocked state broke, he walked over to your table. Barry stands their awkwardly, glaring at Joshua before breaking the silence.

"H-How are you, (Y/N)? It's been a while and w-who's this?" Barry switched his weight between his feet and kept his hands in his pockets. You looked him in the eyes, still shocked that it has been six months since you had last seen him.

  "Barry, I've been doing well and this-this is Joshua, my boyfriend."

Barry glared at Joshua for the second time since arriving at the table. Joshua shrunk in his seat in attempt to escape the hostile glare. Once Barry sensed his fear, he smiled and looked at you once again.

  "Well, it has been nice seeing you. Maybe, I'll start seeing you at the lab again," Barry winked. Could you start going back to lab? Things shouldn't be as awkward since you have finally found someone. You nodded your head in agreement. Barry smiled and hugged you before walking away.

"It was meeting you Johnny," Barry said as he was leaving.

Joshua straightened up in the chair and waved at Barry.

"It-It's Joshua."