I finally got rid of all of the pictures.
All of the messages joking over Youth Group when we were supposed to be quiet and listening.
The cute little nicknames set in different things.
The date I had set in my phone of when we started dating.
All of this stuff, I said goodbye to and I should feel better but there's this dull pain inside of my chest. It's an aching feeling and I don't know if it's because I'm still hurt or my chest just aches for something it can't have. Whatever the truth is behind it, it hurts and I can't seem to keep my mind off of that aching feeling.
Maybe it's because I decided to stay friends with him in order to provide a bit of sanity to both of us and our mutual friends.
Maybe I'm just crazy.
Who knows anymore.
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RandomI've never been good at keeping things down in a place that isn't the dark chaotic messy place that I call my mind. I guess...you'll know how I feel now.