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three years ago
Kumalat ang relasyon nilang dalawa paglipas ng ilang buwan. Wala namang kaso 'yon sa kanya. But what hurts the most is that Mingyu keeps on denying their relationship. And that will also mean that he denied Jeon Wonwoo.
Huling-huli na nga sila sa akto, nakuha pang magsinungaling ni Mingyu tungkol sa kanila. Mingyu keeps on denying, but Wonwoo is there to prove the suspicion about them.
Pagkatapos kumalat ang tungkol sa kanila, marami nang lumapit sa kanya upang bigyan siya ng babala tungkol kay Mingyu. Maraming nagsabi na hindi daw karapat-dapat si Mingyu para sa kanya.
People can see Wonwoo's worth, and Mingyu doesn't deserve a bit of him.
But despite the warnings and threats, he still continued to love him with all of his innermost. Tipong lahat nalang binuhos at binigay niya para sa kanya. Parang. . . Wala na ngang natira sa kanya.
"Paano ba magmahal nang hindi nasasaktan?" Tanong nalang bigla ni Wonwoo kay Jeonghan.
Kasalukuyan silang nakatambay sa labas ng bahay nila. Nag-uusap, catching up with all the thing that happened to them.
"You are bound to hurt either way when you're in love, Wonwoo. It's part of being in love." Paliwanag nito sa mahinang boses.
Wonwoo gulped. Sobrang nasasaktan na siya sa mga nakaraang araw. Gusto na nga niyang bumitaw kay Mingyu pero masyadong niya 'tong mahal para iwanan, "N-Nasasaktan ako. Mahal ba talaga niya ako? Saan ako nagkulang para ma-deny nalang niya ng ganon?"
It's a rhetorical question, but Jeonghan answered it, "He's taking you for granted. At hindi, wala kang pagkukulang. Huwag mo pabayaan ang sarili mo na maging pangalawa sa lagi mong inuuna. Hiwalayan mo na yang gagong yan, hindi ka niya deserve."
Biglang bumuhos ang luhang gusto niya nang ilabas matagal na. He sobbed silently. Noong mapatingin si Jeonghan sa kanya, natawa ito ng mapait, "See that tears? Ilang balde na ba ng luha ang nailaan mo sa kanya? He is not worth your tears, Wonwoo."
"Paano ba magmahal ng tama? Yung sakto lang, yung hindi ako masasaktan ng ganito."
"Paano ka ba magmahal?"
". . . Binibigay ko ang lahat." He whispered, his voice trailing off. Yumuko siya at paulit-ulit na pinunasan ang luhang tumutulo sa pisngi niya.
"Halika dito," Wonwoo moved closer to Jeonghan. Inakbayan siya nito at hinayaan niyang ipatong ni Wonwoo ang ulo niya sa balikat nito.
"That's not how to love, Wonwoo. Giving your all to someone is like committing suicide. You'll end up so dead and empty inside when he's going to leave you."
Wonwoo cried silently.
He doesn't go with the mainstreams and stereotypes, remember?
And this is how he loves.
Giving his all to someone until there is nothing left for him to be alive.
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Closure • meanie
Short Story| stand alone #2 | + three years later, he came back to ask for a closure. copyright © meaniempire, 2017
