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oh my GOD • a psa

hey guess what nothing is new here i'm fucking SAD

i've been listening to She by Dodie Clark a lot recently.

like. a lot.

and every time i do OF COURSE i'm thinking of that one specific person

and OF COURSE it makes me emotional

and OF COURSE i still feel some kind of hatred towards myself

i almost want to say that i'm disgusting as a human but i know that's not the case because hi i'm just human, everything is fine, i'm fine

but oh my god, i'm not fine

i hate to say this but jesus fuck i'm a fagot and i hate myself

wow i'm crying again please stop @ me

i'm listening to the song on repeat AT THIS VERY MOMENT

i recommend the song, if u relate to it and you're a girl then WOW ur gay

i've been recently thinking about stuff again

like. am i bi?

(hi stereotypical high schooler here nice to meet you let me just thROW ON A FLOweR CROWn woW daN AND PHil and rAnDoM)

because. guys are cool i guess.
not really.

but girls are cooler.
totally.

k so maybe i'm not bi but i don't like the term lesbian.

again, it feels gross. to me, it's like calling myself a fagot and being identified as that.

doesn't that just show how i feel about myself? damn

a good idea is to message my friends and talk to them and see what they say

a great idea is to message my best friends and talk to them

a bad idea is to message my current best friend (y'all kno who) because HI i haven't came out to you BUT LET ME HIT YOU WITH MY DEPRESSION REAL QUICK but i'm not homo BUT I AM but no homo

so i think i'll stick with my regular buddies

three also gay ones and one confused one that is currently in love with a guy. those are the people i talk to for these problems lol

K let's try talking to people and see where that takes me

i'll keep u updated bye