Random Spam// Ella

bye

hey so this is the final chapter of this book and every other book i wrote on wattpad.

yay? nay? sorry if youve been following this crappy account.

i actually deleted wattpad from my phone and stuff a while ago and until this week i completely forgot about it.

actually, a few people who read my books started adding me on snapchat and instagram and saying,"OMG WHEN ARE YOU GONMA UPDATE SWEATERS AND CIGARETTES?=&>÷;#*÷" or ,"HI OMG YOUR RANT BOOK IS SO RELATABLE XD IM GAY TOO" 

so, i guess you need an update and an explanation.first, just like any other chapter update i had before, lets give you a run down of my life.just like old times.

ive had two girlfriends (both of which were sophomores and very hot) since we last spoke.the first was kinda serious and good and made my stomach flutter but then she decided she wanted to get back together with her boyfriend when he said sorry for cheating on her.

never fall in love with a straight girl,huh (it wasnt love though lol dont worry ya girl is fine)

and the other was another russian girl wirh curly hair and good music taste.we didnt know eachother in person so it wasnt that serious and we silently broke up by not talking to eachother.

anyway, um.im doing better with the anxiety attacks in a way.not that i talked about that much before.yes hi i have anxiety attacks at three in the morning for no particular reason. and anxiety attacks at two in the afternoon for the slightest of inconviences.

i might be getting medication soon (yay)

my mom is still v unaccepting and i didnt get to go to pride this year ha rip

also i really love orange is the new black even though its terribly emotionally harrowing

its one of my favorite shows ever so definitely go watch that.

oh AND my dad read some of my books (not fanfic) that i write in my spare time and now im going to start online college courses for creative writing maybe

my birthday happened recently too so im older yaya we're all dying

also, im all better after surgery and can now do things like swim and run.i do have three scars on my stomach though so thats gnarly

here are a couple pictures that i stole
from my insta account and such

now you deserve a teeny explanation.

so.i guess part of the reason i dont want to be a wattpader anymore is because I was obsessed before.like, day and night all i lived for was wattpad.

its not like that anymore
sure, i can go on it every once in a while but it feels like a hassle to go through 100 notifications that i dont even care about anymore.

so maybe its better to just stop

dont get me wrong; i am still an anxious hopeless romantic lesbian fangirl.

just.not the one i used to be.

i....
matured?
maybe?

if you wanna see more of me just add me on snapchat! dm me on instagram! like my tumblr reblogs! lets be friends

just let me form my own relationships and talk to girlfriends until 3 in the morning instead of reading or writing fanfic till 3 in the morning.

so the truth of the matter is.

im never going to log back into this account ever again.

but i wont delete it.

even though, looking back on this rant book, i cringe VERY VERY hard, some people seemed to like it.some people seemed to like my fanfictions.

so maybe one day in 10 years ill be sitting with my wife and pupper at home and find this account again and cry from laughing because i was so terrible.

until then

see ya later suckers