I dont want to forget [Jikook]

I Don't Want To Cry

Im awake and found the petals that surround me. It was midnight. I didnt realize i cough the petals
up whilst im sleeping.

It was the 23th day since i cough up petals. I still my have my hopes up though.

I dont know. Im starting avoiding everyone. And everyone seems worried about me. It just that i dont want to see jungkook neither taehyung and everyone know about my disease and began to ask who is it, go take surgery and bla bla.

I know it means that they are worried and concern about me. But still, no one want to forget about the one who you love right?

Usually when everyone were watching the marathon drama, i creeped to my room. Still they must be notice, since im the one who usually excited to watch the marathon.

The thing is that I share the room with Jungkook. Im amazed that till now he hasn't realize that i have this disease.

I kinda miss him.

Eventhough he was this close, but he still out of my reach.

He always hang out with taehyung rather than me. Not like those night when he usually come to under my blanket and tell me his problem. The night when we didnt sleep because we talk to much. The night when he fell asleep when he talking to me. He usually will tell me how him feel right now. And now him not.

Of course

He got taehyung now. I just an extra to his world.

Just an extra.

I hug my bolster. Cry out loud. I dont want to cry. I hate crying. It made my eyes puffy. But i cant handle it anymore. It feel so unfair. To see that the one you love with other.

I feel a sharp pain in my heart. I often feel it but this time is so hurt. I feel like i cant breath.

I hate it.

I dont want to cry