Owned By An Alvarez

Chapter💋31

He managed to open the door while he's carrying me. Kinakabahan parin ako sa posibleng mangyari dahil alam ko sa sarili ko kung ano ang gusto kong mangyari. I know I'm still not in the right age but this is the only thing I know to keep us. I want to be back here knowing that he's mine still. Yung wala siyang kawala.

I know he's mad at me for not telling the truth. I can definitely feel it through his heavy breathing.  Gusto ko nang tumigil sa pagluha pero nakakadagdag lang ang takot sa mga mata niya na mawala ako sa sakit ng nararamdaman ko. I don't think if I can still do this.

Nagulat ako nang ibagsak niya ako sa malambot na kama. He was burning with anger and I was like an insect ready to get burned.

He held my two hands tightly as he pinned it on my both side. Nakadagan siya saakin at tanging takot lang ang naiisip ko ngayon.

"Anong alam mo?" Nakaktakot ang boses niya.

Umiling lang ako ng umiling. I can't say!

"Sagutin mo 'ko! Anong alam mo?!" Napasinghap ako sa biglaan niyang pagsigaw. "What did my father tell you? Please?"

"W-wala!" Sagot ko saka nagpatuloy sa pag-iyak.

"Just tell me. Please?"

"Wala, Clint."

Parang demonyo siya nang ngumisi. "Do you think I will still believe you? Stop making me stupid, Azalea! Tangina."

"H-hindi kita ginagawang--"

Binalibag niya ang kamay ko. "Dahil ginawa mo na! Sinabi mo na nga, hindi ba? And now you're trying to find a hole for escape?"

"Baby---"

"Answer me, please!" Sigaw niya na para bang alam niya na ginagamit ko lang ang endearment namin para pakalmahin siya.

"Fine!" Humagulgol na ako. He gave me a soft peck on my nose.

"Come on, say it." Ngayon ay kalmado na ang boses niya. Hinintay niya akong kumalma. Pero kahit gano'n paman, his expression didn't change. It was still furious like ready to beat someone.

Himinga ako ng malalim bago nagsalita. We stared each other and no one dared to look away. Para bang bawat segundo ay mahalaga.

"Your dad talked to me." Pagsisimula ko. "He wants me break up with you."

Binitawan niya ang isang kamay ko at sinuntok niya ang kanan ko. Napapikit ako dahil sa gulat at takot. Ginamit ko yung oras na 'yon para haplusin ang pisngi niya. His eyes now are bloodshot.

"Fuck it!" Tuluyan na ngang tumakas ang mga luha niya. Nanikip ang puso ko dahil doon. Seeing him suffers like this is like killing me harshly.

"Sorry." Sorry kasi 'yon lang ang kaya kong sabihin. Sorry for making you feel this kind of pain although I am up to leave you this day.

Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko at ibinalik sa pagkakakulong.

"You won't leave me." His voice was full of authority. Nakakatakot pero ang sarap sa pandinig. I don't know why it feel like heaven hearing his voice like this. Parang may kakaiba.

Napapikit ako nang halikan niya ako ng marahan. His lips was moving harshly like there's nk tomorrow. Halos napaungol ako dahil sa mapupusok niyang halik. Napaka bagong pakiramdam nito. It feels like my first time.

Bumaba ang halik niya sa panga ko. It wasn't just a kiss. He's kind of tasting my skin by licking it. The feeling was really surreal. I can't explain the pleasure I am feeling right now. I know we're still young for this but I can't help it! My body is contradicting eh at my mind wants.

"There are no reasons for you to leave me. Wala, Azalea." Tinitigan niya ako. His eyes was burning with desire and wanting. Hindi ko alam pero ganoon din ang nararamdaman ko. The feeling was mutual.

"Akin ka." Bulong niya at nagsimulang magpaulan ng mga halik. His kisses were full possessiveness. Nanggigigil at sabik na sabik. His other hand let go of my right hand and it explored on the side of my body. He caress my waist and it moved in to my tummy.

Napaungol ako nang gumalaw siya. His throbbing pet was like ready for a war. Halos malaglag ang panga ko nang mabilis niyang hinubad ang damit niya. I tried to avoid looking down but my eyes betrayed me. Nakita ko kung paano kahubog ang katawan niya. His six pack abs was sparkling like real gems in my sight.

The room was filled with loud moans and groans. We became one even it hurts so much. I endured the pain because I know this would be the last. Kahit pa parang hinati ang katawan ko sa dalawa. Tiniis ko 'yon lalo na't nakikita ko kung paano siya mag eenjoy. Kahit ito nalang. Ito nalang muna.

"Sorry, it will hurt big time." He said with heavy breathing. Hinalikan niya ako muli sa tungkil ng aking ilong bago gumalaw. The last thing I knew is he's rocking me so hard and so deep until we both felt the real meaning of heaven.

Nakatulog ako pagkatapos n'on. Nagising ako at biglaan nalang akong naiyak. Nakatulog siya ng mahimbing at ewan ko kung dapat ba akong magpasalamat dahil hindi ako nakakulong sakanya. Gustong gusto kong haplusin ang mukha niya pero hindi ko magawa. I want to kiss him but I was so afraid that I might wake him up. Natatakot ako na hindi ko magawa ang gusto ko.

I grabbed my phone on the side table and slowly, I moved away. Ngayon ko lang napansin na nakadamit ako. I cried more while realizing how caring he is to me. How perfect he is for me. And now I knew that he will be my greatest downfall.

"I love you, baby." I whispered. Mas lalo akong naiyak kaya tinakpan ko ang bibig ko. I'm really trying hard to avoid making noise. Natatakot ako ngayon.

I will miss you. Lahat ng masasayang alaala mo kasama ako ay hindi ko kakalimutan. I will keep those just like how you keep me. I will treasure it just like how you're treasuring me. At kagaya din n'on, hindi kita kakalimutan.

Huling beses. Sa huling beses ay pinagmasdan ko siya. Kung paano siya magmukhang anghel kapag natutulog. Kung paano siya kagwapo habang nakabalot lamang ng puting comforter. Naalala ko kung paano siya naging masaya kanina. Yes, he's doubting me a while ago. He already got clues about me leaving him. Pero dahil dito, nawala lahat ng pag-aalinlangan niya. Naniwala siya na kaya kong ibigay ang lahat ko sakanya. Maybe he thought too that I can never leave him. Totoo naman eh kung hindi lang para sakanya.

Bago ako naka alis ay nag iwan ako ng sulat sa vanity table. Panay ang punas ko sa pisngi ko. At dahil sa takot na baka magbago ang isipan ko, I turned my back at him. I left him without glancing for the last time.

Shit. Mamimiss ko siya ng sobra. Siguro, babalik ako. At kahit pa masaya ka na sa piling ng iba, I will try to steal you away from the girl. Babalikan kita, baby. I'm sorry. Advance happy monthsary, okay?

Lahat ng tao sa lobby ay pinagtitinginan ako. Kahit sino naman ay maagaw ang atensyon kung umiiyak ka ng parang namatayan. Yes, indeed. Namatayan ako. My heart is wounded and I don't think if it will be cured soon. How I wish.

As planned, sinundo ako ni Siri. Nang nakita niya akong umiiyak ay agaran niya akong niyakap. Mas lalo akong naiyak.

"Everything will be alright, okay? Tahan na, sissy."

Sana nga. Dahil ang alam ko lang ngayon, my everything is miserable.

Sumakay ako sa kotse niya at gan'on din siya. Mabilis niyang pinaandar ang kotse niya at umalis na kami d'on. Hinawakan ko ang bintana habang pinapanuod na palayo ng palayo ang hotel. This is really hard for me. It's breaking me into pieces.

As planned, I left alone. Walang kasamang mag-isa habang lahat ay miserable. Kahit si Siri ay hindi alam kung saan ako pupunta. Basta nagpahatid lang ako sakanya. At ngayon, I am ready to face everything. I am now ready to face the reality. Na hindi lahat ng panahon, may kasama ka. Hindi lahat mg oras, kasama mo siya.