To Wait For You- Komaeda Nagito X Reader

Chapter 14: Hugs warm the soul, but will it lead to something more?

The sky was blue that day.

The deep blue of a blue-jay's feathers. The soft blue of the Earth's hidden springs.

While the sky illuminated the whole world in crystal blue, the sun shone its light through gentle rays and it cast its blessed warmth on the unbecoming world beneath, and the clouds decorated the sky in random, pattern-less patches of purity; white.

Within the world encased with silence, was a pale pink that found its way onto the complexion of a pair of delicate teens.

The hospital room was quiet; a separate entity from the outside world.

It was a world that was theirs, made only for them.

Komaeda Nagito faced the female in front of him with an awkward, almost flustered, confused smile, and cheeks, though usually always pale, tainted a faint shade of pink.

He didn't quite understand the silence that spread. But with it, he couldn't help but realize.

The girl in front of him was one of utmost beauty; while he of course, noticed from the very beginning, the reality of him being alone in a room with such an attractive female had only just begun to sink in, and he could only provide an awkward laugh in attempt to cast away the hormonal thoughts that begun to gain residence inside his head.

It was inevitable. Though, as much of a trash as he was, he was still a male, and being with someone as beautiful as [Name] will definitely invoke the hormones inside any boy, even just by a little, or a lot.

Him?

It was the latter.

And the constant gaze of [Last Name] [Name] didn't exactly help. In fact, her unwavering state only fuelled his nervousness even more. With a strained, awkward smile and lightly flushed cheeks, he attempted to return her gaze, in hopes that it will ease his awkwardness-

-But, of course, it was to no avail.

It only caused the luckster to be even more flustered, and he instinctively turned around with the back of his hands covering his mouth in attempt to hide the blush that threatened to erupt.

With his gaze to the ceiling, his conscious basically implored for the awkward silence to cease. He was happy, estatic even, that the two had reunited properly, and he wouldn't trade that for anything in the world, honest. But the awkwardness was buring his body, mind and soul alive.

An awkward laugh.

"...[Name]?"

A confused smile. A tilted head.

"....[Name]...-Chan?"

The silence that ensued was so painful; it bled.

"...[Name]...-San...?"

Now, the boy was both flusterred and anxious. Had he done something to upset her? He didn't know. The albino certaintly hoped not. But a part of him at the back of his mind chided; what if she was disappointed by how hopeless, how trashy he was in real life? What if she regretted being by his side? What if he had disgusted her beyond return? It really wasn't a suprise. But...

What if she hated him?-

The thought broke the poor boy's heart with a silent shatter and he felt actual tears fill the sides of his grey orbs. He didn't know what to do, he didn't want her to hate him; if she hated him, he didn't want to go on anymore -

He let out a strangled noise, and incoherrent words strung out of his lips without consent, as his arms, out of place, awkwardly flailed around ressembling an octopus's tentacles.

His face erupted into a bright red, and his mind failed to function as it all went blank.

He stared at the girl who clung desperately onto his form, unable to proccess the reality of feeling her every curve and every rise and fall of her chest against his.

Then, it sank.

She was hugging him.

[Last Name] [Name], was hugging Komaeda Nagito.

It was the first time a girl had actually willing embraced him, not even his own mother did that. Usually, as touched as he would be, he would simply feel grateful. But this was not just a girl.

This was [Name].

His heart begun to beat even faster, as he stared at the girl, only to relax at the beating of her heart-

-It was just as fast as his.

He selfishly let himself indulge in the warmth of her, and he suddenly noticed, how warm she was, he never really felt it before, and how she smelt like a sof scent of mixed berrys, it was pleasing to him, and he also noticed, how much he really missed her.

But, he didn't want to taint her hope, as much as he liked it, he didn't deserve to be held so close by her,

"[Name]-"

He was silenced by a finger on his lips, and the sight of a girl with flushed cheeks, eyes looking downwards, long eyelashes hid a third of her magnificent [Eye Colour] orbs shyly. A knot formed in his stomach. And he forgot how it felt to breathe.

"Shut up..."

She looked up at him, and she let out a shaky sigh. She strengthened the hold on his arms, and her eyes begun to squeeze tightly shut.

His mind was blank again.

And he realized-

The thudding of their hearts increased, as the distance between their lips slowly decreased.

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