Dear depression

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"Today will be our final assessment,you had a lesson before to practice how to write a letter however this time you will be writing about something that is bothering you"
"Don't worry I will not be reading them,Someone else who doesnt know you"

The teacher handed the paper and I stared at it for a good minute.

"Something that is bothering you?"I muttered.

I took my pen and started to write.

Dear Depression,
You need to leave me alone already.Everyday you tell me how fucked up I am and how I shouldn't exist in this world.I'm sick of you controlling me.No,your killing me.Please just leave me.I miss the old days when I was strong.The days that I had a genuine smile.If not please just leave me at night.I need to sleep.You are like a little monster in my thoughts which drive me crazy.I am tired of the questions that I get daily.
What happens to your arm?
What's wrong?
Are you okay?
You think your fine and your getting better.You think it's fine to go outside.It's like an eye of a storm and all of a sudden it hits you again.knocking you down harder than before.Eventually it swallows you.Blocks your vision.Than you can't see how close the ending is and some don't make it.Thinking the only way to stop the storm is to stop themselves.
-your victim.

I sighed.
"I'm sorry"I muttered.

Break time:

I sat under the oak tree and stared at the leaves.

"Yo sis"A familiar voice said.
"Why are you here Baekhyun?Like you ever talk to me in school"I said ripping the large leaf.

"Lets go and we have an audition today"
"Fuck!"I shouted and jolted up.
"Remember the lyrics?"he asked.

Me and Baekhyun left the school and walked into the company.

"Ham-uel"A woman shouted my name.
I stood up and walked towards her.
"Han-uel FIGHTING!"he shouted.
I walked up the stage and bowed at the judges.
"anyoung haseyo, I will be singing the house of cards by ***"
I placed the microphone on the stand and took a deep breath.

Tto witaerowo tto wiheomhae
So bad urin yeah
Deo beotigido jitaenghagido
So hard (hard) an dwae
Imi algo isseodo
Meomchul suga eobseosseo
No way, no way, no way sseureojyeo
Sigani jinagalsurok
Deo manggajyeogagiman hae
No way, no way tto muneojineun geol
Kadeuro mandeun jip geu sogeseo urin
Kkeuchi boindaedo got sseureojindaedo
Kadeuro mandeun jip babogachi urin
Heotdoen kkumiraedo idaero jogeum deo stay
Naeiriran ge eobtdeusi
Daeumiran geon eobtdeusi
Jigeum naegen nun ape neoreul ppaen modeun ge
Jidokhi kkamkkamhan eodumiji
Ipbeoreutcheoreom malhae
Urin gyeolgugen an dwae
Geuraedo nan gyesok barae
Majimakdo neowa hamkkeramyeon I'm okay
Imi algo isseodo
Meomchul suga eobseosseo
No way, no way, no way sseureojye
Sigani jinagalsurok
Deo manggajyeo gagiman hae
No way, no way tto muneojineun geol
Kadeuro mandeun jip geu sogeseo urin
Kkeuchi boindaedo got sseureojindaedo
Kadeuro mandeun jip babogachi urin
Heotdoen kkumiraedo idaero jogeum deo stayk

I finally stopped and looked up.
"Gomawo,Thank you"I bowed and left the stage.

---Baekhyun---
It was funny how she didn't know that this would be on television

She had an angelic voice.
.So pure.

We didn't tell her that Azura died because she was so close to her.Kristen told us and we had to keep it a secret.
She would be heart broken.

What she didn't know that I was the one who was going to read her letter that she wrote in her classroom.

I watched her on the tv in the waiting room.
"Fuck she has such an angelic voice"I thought.

I walked to my manager's door.
I knocked on the door.
"Come in"A deep voice said.
I walked in and sat on his chair.
"Ah hello Baekhyun"His face lightened up.
"Why did you tell me to meet you here"
I asked.
"I have a job offer for your younger sister"He said.
I leaned closer "go on".
"She will be the main leader in a new Jpop group."He said.
My eyes widened.
"What about school?"I asked.
"They all will be going to a high prestige school in Japan,everything is sorted out"He said confidently.
"I see,I totally agree we just need to ask her"I said.
"I will call you when she has her final answer"
I bowed and left his office.

"Baekhyun-ah!i was worried"Hanny said.
"What's wrong?my Hanny is mad?"I teased her.
Ham-uel frowned.
"Lets go to the cafe and get some bubble tea."I said.
I was hoping she would agree and start from a new page.

20 minutes later:

"Hanny i need to tell you something"I stuttered.
She looked up as she sipped her bubble tea.
"Manager-nim asked if you would like to be in a Jpop group,everything is already arranged,you would be leaving in a week "I spilled out.
Her face lightened up.
"What about school?"
"You will go to a prestige school in Japan and you will move in to the dorms with your group"I said.

"Yes"She said calmly.
My eyes widened as I didn't except her to agree.

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