Harrison Avenue // H.S.

Almost Famous

[Ellison]

           
"Ellison, Elle, Elle, Ellison!" the shouts are continuous, my name almost turning into a blob of a word as it's repeated over and over again. It's not coming from one person, it's coming from probably hundreds, and this isn't the first time this has happened but I can't say it's something I've gotten used to yet. "Ellison, Elle, Ellison!"

I suppose it's my own fault. I am the one who put myself in this position. I didn't have to walk out here. I could have waited a few more minutes until the lights went out. That isn't fair though. I decided quite some ago that I wouldn't hide away. I can't stay in the dark just because Harry has a handful of fans who know who I am, who know my name.

Well, it's more than a handful.

It's not all of them. Harry has a fairly diverse fan base, slowly winning more and more people over with his music that's mixed with his slightly addictive charismatic personality. Thanks to that though, in combination with the fact that he's obviously fucking hot, even though he's nearer to thirty than he is his teen years, he's gotten a substantial fan base of girls between the teen and early twenty age range.

I knew it would happen, it has been happening since he first started getting big. His first super fan was a teenage girl. Harry's so good about it. He doesn't minimize the importance of anyone who chooses to support him and he doesn't try to brush off teen girls because he thinks they devalue his music... because he strongly believes that they don't. It's an interesting thing though. Sometimes they know things about him that I have no idea how they could possibly know.

Harry doesn't put his life, our life, out to the world very explicitly. It's just enough to keep people interested, and in the early years he was a little more vocal about personal stuff, but at this point he's very thoughtful about what he wants people to know. They've always known about me though, because Harry was never The Harry Styles without me being a part of it.

It's the girls that always seem to know who I am though, they're the ones that yell my name and try to get my attention.

"Elle, Ellison," they still yell and I haven't acknowledged them yet, holding onto Dylanne a little tighter even though we have a barricade separating us from the yelling fans.

It's something that I am still trying to figure out my role in. I am not famous by any means, Harry is the one who is. I'll got to events with him, I'm pictured with him, his more dedicated fans know about my life with strange and almost concerning detail, but I'm not famous. And I'm not the charismatic type like Harry is, I'm not even all that friendly. I used to climb out of windows to avoid awkward situations. It's something I have to be conscious of though, because what I do affects Harry... and while I don't care what people think of me, or if they think I'm a bitch because I don't wave to them, I don't want that to put that together with him.

For now, I've taken on an almost silent approach, rarely saying anything, smiling for enough time to give the impression that I'm almost as nice as Harry. I'm nowhere near as nice as Harry though.

My name still dominates the room, or at least the front part of it where people are pushed into the barricades, waiting for the last few minutes to go by before Harry comes out and starts singing. Dylanne is on my hip, wearing ear muffs that are almost twice the size of her head to protect her little ears once the concert starts and the sound blasts from the speakers. Matt is standing next to me, and there's a few shouts of his name too, and even though there's security here due to the nature of the situation we're in right now, I feel a little safer having just having Matt by my side.

Harry was gone for three months and even though I didn't go three months without actually seeing him, it felt like it. I stayed home because there were commissions I was painting, work at the museum I'm employed at, and because of Dylanne. I couldn't do it though. I couldn't be away from him for any longer while he was about to start his biggest tour yet. So, we're trying out family life on the road.