The One That Got Away [On - Going]

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Samantha

Every day given to us is a new day to begin with something beautiful. Beautiful things to make, to treasure and keep all the memories in. And knowing that I get to wake up every morning to see another day and watch it till the sun is no more, is a very much amazing gift that I could ever receive.

I smiled happily as my eyes felt the sunlight coming through against the window..

It's another day.

To begin with something beautiful.

Another day given to spend moments with the people who I love the most.

"Good morning beautiful.." Rinig kong sabi ng isang lalaki sa'kin. And it was Kurt.

Bigla akong napaisip. Am I really beautiful? Do I deserve to be called beautiful?

People could see the beauty from the outside.. But couldn't see the beauty from within.

Some may be beautiful physically, but are they also beautiful on the inside? It's hard to tell.

I'm a human. I make mistakes just like everybody else. Mistakes that could make me look ugly inside.

Everyone has their darkest secrets and I also have mine. Ang problema, nakakakilala tayo ng mga tao. Mga taong maaaring makapag-palabas ng mga pinakatatago nating sikreto. We meet new people. We fall in love. Telling secrets on each one. And then boom! It's up to those people kung tatanggapin nila kung ano tayo. Yung totoong kulay ng bawat isa sa'tin.

Pero nasa sa sarili natin kung hahayaan natin silang halukayin at mas kilalanin tayo. The question is, are you willing to take the risk?

Would you let someone know your dark secret and let them decide whether they accept you for who you are...or not?

Nginitian ko lang yung taong sinabihan akong maganda. Honestly, it's a great way to start my day.

Naupo muna ako saglit sa kama at tinignan ang cellphone ko.

Wow.

8AM.

It seems like a first time that I woke up early today. Lalo pang walang pasok ngayon.

I can barely remember the last time I woke up early on a day like this. You know, yung normal lang na araw. Walang pasok.

Nag-inat-inat ako..

Teka?

Asan si Kurt? Bakit nawala bigla? Kanina lang binati niya ako ng good morning ah. Ah, baka bumaba lang. Tch. Bababa pala siya, di man lang nagsabi. Hayst. Bababa na nga lang din ako para kumain na ng breakfast.

I find this morning so weird. Ibang iba ang ambiance. It's cold like evening. Ang tahimik masyado ng paligid. Well, palagi namang tahimik dito dahil wala naman yung mga kapatid ko. At isa pa, nasa abroad sila Papa. Iilang helper at driver at ako lang ang kadalasang nandito. Pero iba talaga yung ambiance eh. Hindi yung typical na ambiance paggising mo sa umaga.

Hindi naman ganito ang umaga sa amin.. I should hear some cooking happening in the kitchen. Naka-on dapat yung mga sprinklers sa garden. Ang pagbuhos ng tubig ng mga driver sa paglilinis ng sasakyan. But today, it feels different. Really.

It's so quiet and I'm not used to it. Ito yung feeling na parang ako lang yung nag-iisang tao dito sa loob ng bahay.

Nagpunta na lang ako sa kitchen.. and I was very surprised to see my family eating breakfast together. Nandito sila Mama at Papa. Yung dalawa kong malditang kapatid nandito rin. Si ate Kelley and si Yumi. I don't know but it feels unreal. Himala ata at nangyari ang breakfast reunion na ito sa pamilya namin. I mean, laging busy sila Mama sa work nila ni Papa. Ate Kelley is working with her boyfriend in California. Since I'm still studying here, my parents thought I may not take good care of my little bratty sister Yumi so my aunt took her. They're also in California. And so I was left alone with our helpers here in the Philippines. I know right? Ang saklap na ako lang mag-isa dito. But it's okay, I can handle myself. That's what they think of me maybe? They think I can stand alone even if they're not here. They think I am an independent person. Yes I am. At pinapadalhan naman nila ako lagi financially. Pero iba pa rin yung kasama ko sila dito. Dito sa sarili naming bahay.