𝙋𝙍𝙀𝙁𝙀𝙍𝙀𝙉𝘾𝙀𝙎, it chapter one

love? 𝗷𝗮𝗰𝗸 𝗽𝗮𝗿𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗿𝗲𝗲

TW, suicide notes.

Weston

A kiss. That's all it was. A simple peck on the lips, why? Did you hear something else? Oh Weston, why did you do it? We could've had something, something real. But I guess not. I should've know better than to trust you, but who wouldn't. You're a strange boy. It's easy to fall for you, but it's hard to stand back up. You started everything. The bullying, the comments, the abuse. You did that to me. But of course your fans don't need to know about that. You're the funniest guy I have ever met, you know how to make someone feel special, make them happy. But you also know how to destroy them. William Weston Koury, I hope you know how much you hurt much. I hope you know that you're a reason why. - y/n

Sophia

What can I say? You're my best friend. I don't intend to hurt you, Sophia. I just couldn't take people hurting me anymore. Hear me out, I'm going through so much shit right now, and I just can't take it anymore. Don't stress over me, don't even think about me. Not like you did anyway. Just because you were always there doesn't mean I never noticed, never heard. I know what you said about me. So thank you I guess, for helping me end my pain. You Sophia, are just another reason why. I'll always remember the good times, but nothing can overpower the darkness. - Y/n ♡

Ellie

You were my best friend, which is exactly why I don't understand why you did it. Were you jealous? Or did you just hate seeing me happy? You've always had a tendency to do this, take away anything that makes me happy. But what you did, it was too far. Why? That's all I want to know. Why did you do it? We were inseparable. We knew everything about each other. I guess that made it easier. You're the biggest snake I know, you're a manipulative bitch! And I hate you so much. Everything we went through, together. Did you ever feel an ounce of guilt? Did you ever realise that what you were Doing was pathetic? Although you have done nothing but hurt me. I wish you the best. Maybe get hit by a bus or something? Only a small one though. I just want you to feel the pain you put me through, I doubt it would hurt as much. - Y/n

Jaeden & Wyatt

My two babes. You guys were like my support system. Whenever I got hurt we'd go through the same steps.
1. Cry.
2. Cuddle.
3. Eat ice cream.
4. Spam watch Friends
It was our monthly routine. That was until you stopped caring. You guys were so focused on building me up all the time, I guess you go tired of building. Because you left me half empty. It was kinda shallow, but I understand. I was being selfish expecting you to waste your time on me. Especially when you had games to play. But I guess I didn't understand that I was the game. You guys were my only friends at the time. Even Sophia hated me. And then one day you just turned on me. You stopped caring. You stopped listening. And that my friend is your reason why. Please remember. Lack of attention leads to loneliness. - Y/n ♡

Finn

Why me? Out of all people you chose me. You chose to hurt me. Everything you stole from me. I needed them, it sounds pathetic. Like I'm an over emotional bitch. But those compliments, I lived for them. They were basically my lifeline. And you took them away from me. You took it upon yourself to do that to me, for no reason. I've never done anything to you, Wolfhard. We never even talked. Yeah you were nice to me that night, but you were just trying to get in my pants. Like everyone else you had one thing on your mind. Because y/n l/n is a slut. Finn, you took everything away from me. And for what? I guess I'll never know. Or will I? - y/n ♡

Jack

Oh where do I start? You were my everything. I Loved you more than anything in the world, I still do. In fact, I never stopped. You were my drug, you are deadly, and addictive. Which is why it hurt so much when I had to let you go. I don't think you know how it feels, to have the one thing you love ripped away from you. I had to watch you and Ellie fall in love, I had to sit at the sidelines as I watched her get everything I've ever wanted, everything I ever had. It destroyed me. It broke my heart, the last functioning piece I had left. I know I broke up with you, but that wasn't on my being. My mum forced me to leave you, she wanted me to forget about boys. I guess neither of you realised how much I really needed you. Jack Dylan Grazer, I love you with all my heart. I always will. Even if you will never feel the same again. I know I'm dead now, and you're hopefully very much alive. Writing this note killed me, throughout all of these lovely little things I had a feeling.
Maybe I could get through this. That was until I got to You. I realised why I was always so sad, why I was always in so much pain. So Jack I want you to do something for me. Although it's not something simple because I've come to realise you can't handle a simple task. Like keeping in touch. That would've saved me, but that doesn't matter anymore. I want you to explain why I won't be at school tomorrow, why no one will bump into me in town. Why you should stop loving someone who stopped loving you. I'll miss you baby - y/n ♡