Learn To Make Mistakes - Phan/KickThePhil

Chapter 5

"But when I edited the video I noticed how obvious my feelings really were, even if I hadn't realised them myself..."

I pulled the headphones from my ears and took a break from editing the video me and dan made. He left only three hours ago, yet I already missed him, so I Pulled out my phone and sent him a text.

To: llama boy

Yo i'm just taking a break from editing the video, wanna skype?

And almost instantaneously, I got a reply.

Llama boy

14:25

Ugh sorry, I can't, shopping with mum: /

Well so much for that. So I put my headphones back in and smiled at the frame i had left. It was the part where I bowled dan over at the end. Huh. When you watch it over again it almost looks like we're a couple... "No. Stop thinking like that, phil." I told myself. Dan is just my friend, and he definitely doesn't feel anything towards me. Dan's straight. I know that.

After I had finished editing the video, which I ingeniously named "Philisnotonfire" I uploaded it onto you tube, and sent Dan a link.

I must have watched that video over and over again, and each time I noticed something different. The way dan's eyes sparkle, the way he looks down when he laughs, the way I always glance at him for slightly too long, or how my face lights up when I look his way. But I didn't like dan more than a friend, I wasn't gay. Was I? I don't remember falling asleep that night, but when I woke up, I remembered dreams filled with the sweet chocolate of his eyes and the soft feel of his chesnut hair.

I realized then that maybe, just maybe, Daniel Howell would be the one ocupating my mind for a long time to come.

okay so incase you haven't realised I am literally just copying and pasting my own story from ff.net at the moment, but as I am no longer going to upload there, this story will be independent from chapter seven onwards. I have all of the chapters written up until about chapter 11 so far but they will still be slower uploaded so probably won't be once a week. sorry :) ~Toni