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it was easy to forget about her non-existent relationship with jimin.

but it wasn't easy to forget her single status. she knew it was vain and silly of her to care so much about her lack of relationship, but she couldn't help it.

she was desperate.

she hadn't been on a date before, she hadn't held hands with anybody capable of being a love interest (since food didn't count), and she hadn't even had her first kiss.

all her friends were tied to someone and it was a pain being the awkward third and sometimes fifth wheel whenever her best friends went on dates.

she was tired of seeing cute couple shit online and wishing she had someone to call hers too.

how many times had she questioned her likeability? she had debated a dozen times, wondering if she should change herself so more people would like her, or be willing to date her. but refrained, as she wanted someone to like her for who she was.

but why was it so hard? her friends told her she was considered pretty among girls in their school and jimin had laughed at her jokes many times. she had a tonne of guy friends too so she couldn't understand why she couldn't get a boyfriend.

she longed to experience dating. at this point, she didn't even care if the love wasn't real...

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"date me kookie." she pleaded, puppy eyes flashing with what she hoped was a cute pout.

jungkook's eyes widened as he blushed. "noona, promise me you won't go around asking strange boys that."

"i won't if u date me, so is that a yes?" she asked cheekily, yet still meaning every word.

"noona jeongmal kyeopta, but i-i..."

"wae? what's so wrong about me kookie?" she asked, frowning.

"there's nothing wrong with you aera. kookie just sees you as a sister. we all do." namjoon said, cutting in.

"then why won't anyone else date me." aera asked, in a small voice.

"hmm... probably because you are the 모태솔로 of the school." jin teased.

when she groaned, hoseok comforted her. "it's because almost everyone in school is scared of you."

"i'm not that scary!" she protested.

"you walk around with an rbf, and everyone remembers that time you sent minseo to the hospital..."

aera gaped, feeling helpless. "that was four years ago and he was bullying a cat! and i just inconveniently punched his solar plexus... but i didn't know he was asthmatic! and i never asked him to trip over his own leg and hit his head on the corner of the playground slide okay. at least i called for help."

"we know, but every guy is just scared that you'll do the same if he breaks your heart... and i can't blame them..." namjoon reasoned.

"so what, i'm never going to get a boyfriend until i leave this school?! so embarrassing!! i don't want to be the school's 모솔!"

just then, a group of girls passed by their table. "haha aera ssi, when will you ever start to date! do you think you are above the boys in our school? tch, you'll be single for life." sooji said snidely.

"no boy would ever want to date you, sucks i guess. maybe if you were more like minah, she has jimin now!" one other girl said.

don't remind me. aera thought sullenly. she mentally rolled her eyes, why did she have to meet sooji today?

sooji was always mocking and bullying her about her lack of boyfriend. and she detested it. in fact, sooji was the one to give the title of 모대솔로 at the beginning of last year. she didn't know why sooji went out of the way to belittle her, but jungkook told her it was because sooji was jealous.

but today, aera had enough.

"i am getting a boyfriend, so you don't need to concern yourself sooji ssi."

"eodiya? imaginary boyfriends don't count!" sooji snickered.

"he doesn't go to our school, but we like each other very much, it's only a matter of time." aera clipped, proud of herself for making a good excuse.

sooji glared, clearly unwilling to accept the news. "prove it then. send me a picture of you guys together."

she knew she should've just let sooji win and come clean.

she knew she could've waited and endured sooji's bullying for six more months.

and she didn't know what possessed her to say," 당용하지! you'll be surprised by how handsome he is. don't be too jealous."

the regret that followed was immediate.

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당용하지 (tang-yong-ha-ji) : of course