My Suicide Story

A New Kind Of Love

After my sister's death, I started shutting out everyone from my life. . In my sister's funeral, I cried real hard and ruined everything. I still regret that. I went into depression and it took me many months to recover. It still hurts to think about my sister. Every time I remember Christy, my eyes well up with tears. I feel suddenly empty and hollow inside of me. But all through these difficult years, my parents and friends were always there for me. They helped me get through this living hell that I had made for myself. They made me realize that feeling sad was completely OK as long as I remembered that there was a long life ahead of me. I have no words to tell about all the time they spent on me.

Caspian made it especially fun, taking me out to these weird places that were actually amazing. We had met only a few days before Christy's death, but he had still cared for me. It made me like him even more. We got to know each other a lot more and enjoyed every second together. He knew it would take a very long time for me to overcome my grief but still he stayed with me even though he knew I have nothing to repay him with.

One day, we were just hanging out in his backyard when I said, " Caspian, thanks for everything. I don't know what I can do for you. " He said, "Well, there is something you can do for me. " " What?" I shot back playfully. " Um.. I thought it's time we start something more than just friendship? " he said nervously. I don't know what came over me, but those words just pierced my heart like cupid's arrows and I just pulled him into a kiss. My first ever kiss and it was nothing like what I had ever experienced before. When we pulled away, I just looked Caspian in the eye and he said, " So you agree? " " You bet! "

We spent the whole evening together, laughing and talking about each other. We promised that as long as we're together, we'd stick up for one another no matter what.

It was 8 in the night and the full moon shone bright lighting Caspian's faint manly figure. We had been quiet for a while now, but the silence spoke more than our words could ever have spoken. I actually felt really happy for the first time since the death of my sister. Caspian reached out and placed a strand of my hair from my face behind my hair. We looked into each other's eyes and all I could see was the massive amount of love Caspian had for me. He pulled me closer and we shared a slow passionate kiss. He just made my day. I went to sleep with all the day's happenings in my mind.