Started With A Rumor

Unable To Forget You

Jeremy's POV

As soon as I slammed her apartment door shut, I heard the sound of something being thrown. My heart sank as I heard her start crying. It took everything in me to not run back inside, wrap my arms around her and apologize over and over.

I hesitated before turning on my heel, heading towards the nearest bar.

"Scotch," I ordered as I sat down on an open stool.

"Rough day?" The bartender asked. I sent him a glare making him put his hands up in defense.

"Jeremy?" I turned around to see Tyler Hoechlin walk over and sit next to me. "How's it going man?"

"Could be better," I mumbled before downing half my drink.

"Whoa, everything okay?"

"Not really. Do you ever do something so stupid for the dumbest reason and you can't even explain to the person you hurt why you hurt them?"

"Yes," he said simply making us both chuckle. "What did you do?"

"I screwed up man. Normally when I screw up, I'm the only one who gets hurt. The only one who gets screwed over. But this time. . ." And then I told him everything. I told him about Sarah, about the deal, everything.

"And the thing is," I sighed "I'm not sure I want it to be fake anymore."

"Tell her that." I looked over at Tyler and scoffed. "I'm serious Jeremy. If you really do care about Sarah, then talk to her. That's the only thing you can do. If you tell her how you feel about her, tell her the truth, she might understand."

"Or she might hate me even more. I don't think I can risk that."

"Dude, there's always a risk. That's what makes it worth it."

**********

It's been almost two weeks since Sarah and I had our fight. I've tried to get ahold of her, but she's been ignoring all my calls and texts. When I went to her apartment, she wouldn't answer the door. Today I decided to go to her studio.

I nervously walked into the building, hoping no one stopped me. I stood outside the studio that Sarah always used. On the door, in black cursive letters was the name "Sunny."

I had my hand on the handle, about to open the door, but stopped when I heard Sarah start to sing.

"Guess I didn't know how to take it, that night we had that talk
Found out about my replacement, I just smiled and shook it off
I didn't ask you any questions, didn't beg you to stay
You said you knew that I would understand, then I watched you drive away
When there's just no words to stay

I scream at the top of my lungs
Yeah, I come undone
I crash my broken glass when no one's around
I cry out
In the silence I can't take
To cover up the sound it makes when I let my heart break
I scream

I always say the right things, at all the right times
I know I'm not the perfect girl, but for some reason I try
To be the one who's smiling and laughing, to make sure everyone's okay
I can push those tears back inside like an actress on the stage
But when the curtains fall away

I scream at the top of my lungs
Yeah, I come undone
I crash my broken glass when no one's around
I cry out In the silence I can take
To cover up the sound it makes when I let my heart break
I scream, I scream

I can't hold it in no more
I don't feel like playing nice
When I feel like getting loud
I just gotta let it out
I just gotta let it out

I scream at the top of my lungs
Yeah, I come undone
I crash like broken glass when no one's around
I cry out
In the silence I can't take
To cover up the sound it makes when I let my heart break
I scream
I scream
I scream."

My heart shattered when I heard her start to cry. "Sarah," I heard Max sigh.

"Why," she sobbed. "What is wrong with me? Why am I crying over some guy?! I mean he's a terrible person and we weren't even really dating but. . . Why am I so hurt?"

She began to cry harder causing my hand to fall off the handle. I took a step away from the door as the guilt swallowed me up.

"I did this," I whispered to myself. I was about to leave but stopped when I heard Max start to talk.

"Sarah, sweetheart, look at me. I know right now everything is confusing and frustrating. I know that the circumstances and the stuff you two went through, put you both in an awful situation. I know you feel defeated, hurt. . . Helpless but Sarah, I've seen the way Jermey looks at you. If I compare how he looks at you now to how he looked at you when you first met? You changed him, Sarah. And I think. . . I believe that Jeremy even changed you in a way. Maybe you just have to give him, and yourself, a chance."

"I. . . I don't think I can do that Max. I think it's better if Jeremy and I go our separate ways. I just. . . I don't fit into his world."

"But I want you too." I said under my breath.