Know Yourself [] PJM & MYG/ Yoonmin []

Chapter 5: Embrace

[warning: Mature content ahead.]

The band's week-long break had come to an end, despite Yoongi's prayers for more sleep. But he managed to push through his often exhausted demeanor, assured that he would be able to rest in his next life. As a rock.
More than quelling his own exhaustion, Yoongi wanted more time alone with Jimin. He found himself feeling blind on a stairwell. Unsure of the next step. Yoongi knew they weren't allowed to date. Of course dating another man is enough to ruin a career in South Korea. The societal shaming of gays still evident in their culture. Something Yoongi wished would change.
Yoongi continued to wonder about the future for him and Jimin over the next couple weeks. Their schedules were divided most of the time: Yoongi focusing on his music in the studio and doing a couple photoshoots with the other BTS rappers and Jimin stuck in the practice studio for hours on end working on choreography and monitoring his vocal control.
Yet the two managed to sneak away a few times. When their paths crossed as the rap line left their Photoshoot in Ilsan, Jimin snatched Yoongi away. Pulling him into a covered alley way near the main location and stealing a few deep and hungry kisses. Jimin kept it quick and rejoined the vocal line for their photoshoot, leaving Yoongi to continue his day rejuvenated. A few days later during a break in their dance practice, Yoongi followed Jimin to the bathroom. Taking on his role as thief, stealing Jimin's breath and small moans with his own lips as he pinned him against the bathroom stall.
Despite their attempts at discretion, Yoongi felt like Namjoon always noticed. His eyes intensely warning, reminding Yoongi to be careful. Yoongi decided to put away from Jimin for the time being. A decision he was unsure he'd be able to keep.
A new week of schedules started as November began. The seven were on their way to the practice studio to film the next episode of "Run BTS!". Yoongi mentally prepared himself for the upcoming antics during the ride. Hobeom drove the van, conversing with Namjoon and Seokjin about various issues Yoongi didn't bother paying attention to. Yoongi could only watch the city pass by outside the windows, wondering what Jimin was doing at that moment in the van behind them. Jealousy pinged at his heart thinking about Jimin's hands touching Taehyung, Hoseok, or Jungkook. Knowing well how touchy-feely Jimin was. Yoongi felt his grumpiness begin to settle in but managed to ward it off with thoughts of a secret encounter with Jimin. Even if he did promise himself he was going to back off. It was nice to dream at least.

The set was prepared as the band arrived at the studio. Yoongi made sure to avert his gaze away from Jimin as they headed inside and taking their seats to get their make up done and hair checked. To make sure he was left undisturbed, Yoongi sat in his chair and closed his eyes. His earbuds cancelling all outside noise with his favorite play list as the makeup artist ran her seemingly endless amount of brushes and sponges lightly across his skin.
Withing a few minutes the production crew was ready to begin filming, the Director tapping Yoongi's shoulder to alert him.
Yoongi removed the earbuds and quickly applied the microphone to his loose black sweater. When his eyes turned to the set his heart nearly stopped. He realized he hadn't actually laid eyes on Jimin in four days and at this moment, he looked like the most amazing piece of art work Yoongi had ever laid eyes on. Jimin's ashen locks were tossed in a light mess. An oversized pastel sweater fit his frame, standing out against his honey skin. His legs seemingly longer in a pair of ripped fitted jeans. Silver chain earrings hung from his ears, guiding Yoongi's gaze over the slender lines of Jimin's neck.
As if he could feel Yoongi's stare, Jimin turned to meet his gaze. Jimin's favorite gray contacts disappearing behind crescent slits as he sent a bright smile in Yoongi's direction. Waving the elder member over to stand beside him. Sadly, Yoongi still felt compelled to keep his inward promise. Hiding his pout as he went to stand beside Namjoon, as far as he could be from Jimin as the seven lined up in front of the cameras. Yoongi's insides shriveled at the sight of Jimin's clear disappointment.
"3, 2, 1!" Jungkook said before clapping his hands together to initiate the filming.
At the signal from the director the show started. Namjoon speaking first, "We're back!"
The other members clamored in unison, whooping in approval and gratitude to be filming another episode for their fans. After the quick but somewhat chaotic exchange, which had become normal for them, they turned back to the production crew.
"So what are we doing today?" Hoseok asked the production team to lead into an explaination of the days episode.
The director explained, "The theme for Today's episode is "Getting Closer with BTS". You'll draw lots to be separated into 3 teams. Each team will perform in 3 challenges to test their teamwork and knowledge of their teammates. At the end of each game the winning team will get to choose an item from the list of food we have provided in an effort to create a meal for lunch by the end of the game. The team that loses will undergo punishments after each round, decided upon by the other teams."
The seven awed in unison. Each worrying about their teams and the upcoming challenges as a crew member handed out the folded papers used to divide the teams. Each member picking one carefully and going back to their original spot.
"2, 1," Taehyung counted down as everyone unfolded their pieces of paper, revealing a large English letter: A, B, or C.
Team A consisted of Namjoon, and Taehyung with Hoseok as MC. Team C consisted of Seokjin and Jungkook. While, much to Yoongi's dismay, Team B consisted of himself and Jimin. A sense of nervousness rushed Yoongi's body. Keeping hyper aware of his actions with the younger memberon camera. Don't fuck up. Don't fuck up. Don't fuck up. His mantra of the day.
"Dalyeola Bangtan!" The seven shouted their ritual to begin the games.
Despite his heart nearly leaping from his chest from standing side by side with Jimin, Yoongi was thankful the first game was light. 'Bangtan Quiz' as the production company named it.
Yoongi and Jimin took their seats beside each other as Hoseok announced the game, explaining it for the viewers. And probably once more for Taehyung and Jungkook who have a tendency to ignore the explanations. Though this game was a simple one, Yoongi could feel his competitive spirit take hold. He and Jimin would most likely win since they did know a lot about each other. Then again, Yoongi was feeling like he didn't know much of anything about the younger member these days.
Hoseok asked his questions to RM and V first. Dubbing themselves the genius team, they did well. Scoring 4 out of the 6 questions. Followed by Hoseok quizzing Jungkook and Jin's team. Dubbed Kim Seokjin team. Proof Jungkook had lost a game of rock, paper, scissors over the team name. Something that happens quite often. The two bickered but managed to answer 3 of the six questions correctly. The round allowed Yoongi to relax beside Jimin and share in his angelic laugh and light touches.
"Okay! MiniMini team!" Hoseok said, turning to Yoongi and Jimin, with a team name he had decide on his own. "First question is for Jimin-ssi. What is Suga's favorite food?"
Yoongi quickly writes his answer on the dry erase board provided. Jimin answers without hesitation, "Lamb skewers."
"Yeah!" Yoongi reveals his answer, proving Jimin correct.
Jimin quickly whooped and high fives Yoongi before taking the dry erase board awaiting his question. Yoongi couldn't help but realize how hard it had become to look at anyone else when Jimin was so close.
"Ye~ Suga-ssi... Who is Jiminie's favorite singer?" J-hope continued.
Yoongi felt the smile spread across his lips. Of course he knew the answer, "Taeyang Sunbae-nim."
"Yay!" The younger member revealed his answer, passing another bright smile and high five to Yoongi.
The quiz continued on without a hitch. Jimin and Yoongi answering ever question correctly and the other members clapping in awe of their knowledge of each other. Yoongi swelled with pride in their knowledge of each other. With each congratulatory hug and dance, Yoongi could feel his emotions brimming over. But he managed to control his actions under the stares of the cameras and production staff.
They moved on to the next game with Yoongi and Jimin leading the scoreboard.
"Yah, everyone," J-hope said after the second set was put together, which simply consisted of a makeshift obstacle course. "This is a game to test your trust. One of you will be blindfolded and have to make it through the obstacle course by taking directions from the other player on their team."
This time Team Seokjin went first. It was a chaotic round of Jungkook yelling orders at the blinded Jin who stumbled around as the other members yelled back to confuse them. Yoongi's stomach was already aching from laughter as Jin's ears and neck reddened with annoyance at the Maknae who was having a little too much fun watching his team member stumble through the course. Their time recorded at just over 5 minutes.
Next was Genius Team. Taehyung started a little slowly, trying to discern Namjoon's voice out of all the other yelling. Surprisingly, Taehyung was good at taking direction when he focused and the Two finished the course in 3 minutes. Jumpingin victory at the finish line.
"Team MiniMini!" J-hope shouted, guiding the blindfolded Jimin to the starting point. "Ready... Start!"
Yoongi stood just past the finish line, eyes trained on his blindfolded team mate. The other members were already shouting distractions. Yoongi was unsure if Jimin would be able to find his voice so he tried shouting his directions a little louder than the others.
Surprisingly, Jimin moved gracefully through the course. Taking every direction Yoongi gave him with as much accuracy that was possible for someone who couldn't see what he was doing. Yoongi couldn't help but grin watching Jimin's slow movements. His long legs stepping over the boxes, his arms daintily extended to give him balance. His warm laugh flooding Yoongi's ears. Yoongi's heart beating faster with each small distance closed between them until Jimin crossed the finish line, stumbling into Yoongi's arms. Jimin removed his blind fold and smiled at Yoongi. For just a moment, they almost forgot about the world around them.
"Alright!" J-hope clapped, pulling Jimin and Yoongi back into the real world and out of each others arms. "Team MiniMini wins again! Now for the final game! 'Bangtan Brothers Marathon'!"
The members took a break while the production crew put together the set for the next game. Yoongi layed down on the old sofa they kept in the corner, knowing he would usually pretend to nap during the breaks. But he found it hard to keep from stealing glances in Jimin's direction. Watching him nibble at a sandwich and joke around with Taehyung, Jungkook, and Hoseok. Every so often his eyes would meet Yoongi's, both sharing shy smiles and lightly flushed cheeks.

Yoongi found himself riding his competitive high, not even thinking ahead to what the next game could be. That was until the staff explained it to them. It was a relay. Each team would need to successfully complete 3 tasks as quickly as possible: pass 3 pieces of paper using their mouths, blow up and pop a balloon with their bodies, and lastly put 10 tennis balls into a bucket using only their chins.
Yoongi could feel the anxiety creep inside him. It had been what felt like centuries since Yoongi had been in such a close proximity to Jimin and these games pushed them as close to each other as possible on television without crossing the societal line between bromance and homosexuality. It wasn't like Yoongi didn't want to be close to Jimin. He was more afraid he wouldn't be able to control himself in a place where he definitely needed to be aware of his actions.
Jungkook and Jin started first again. Making sure to give everyone plenty of laughs while making it quickly through each stage of the relay, cheering loudly at completion.
RM and Taehyung followed, their spectacle even more hilarious than the last. Between Namjoon's clumsiness and Taehyung's habit of doing weird things, the two managed to give everyone plenty of laughs. Even bringing a few people to tears as they fell to last place.
Yoongi could feel his muscles tense as Hoseok called them up from their seats to begin their round. Jimin looked just as rigid, standing across from him. Avoiding Yoongi's eyes as he clumsily grabbed the pieces of paper. Yoongi had to bite his lip to keep his mind from wishing the papers out of existence so nothing could be between them.
"Ready..." Hoseok began and Jimin lifted the first paper to his full lips, "Start!"
Yoongi hesitated, groaning out false complaints about the game. But Jimin grabbed the older's wrist, pulling him close and lightly holding the paper against Yoongi's lips. Yoongi tried not to freeze. Tried not to look so pleased at Jimin's touch. Efforts he was sure he failed, knowing what he wanted most was on the other side of the paper. But they managed to get through the first course without too many obvious mitakenly-dropped-so-Yoongi-could-feel-Jimins-lips mishaps.
Yoongi blew up the balloon for the second course, knowing Jimin struggled a little with it. The two put the balloon between them before wrapping their arms around each other. The balloon popped a little too quick and easy for Yoongi's liking and the Two moved on to the last course.
The other members cheered them on now, their time being just a little faster than Seokjin Team. Jimin grabbed one of the tennis balls and slipped it under his chin before turning to Yoongi. Yoongi leaned in, turning his head so his chin could put the ball away from Jimin's grasp. With one breath, Yoongi realized this game was the most dangerous.
As they passed each ball all Yoongi could focus on was Jimin's soft cheek against his own. Their chests bumping together. Their hands intertwining to keep from using them. The full scent of Jimin's cologne mixed with his fruity shampoo making Yoongi dizzy with each pass. Yoongi's palms were sweaty and his breath labored. His body tingling all over. Butterflies fluttering in his stomach. The desperate need to be closer to Jimin growing inside him nearly boiling over at the end of the game.
Yoongi and Jimin wound up winning the game, a multitude of food dishes laid out before them. Each allowing other members to share in the meal after showing a dance or some cringe worthy aegyo. As they gulped down the food, Hoseok stood up and grabbed the sheets of paper held out to him by one of the cameramen.
"Since team Kim Seokjin is our loser today, that means they'll have to partake in one of the punishments laid out by the other teams," Hoseok said, holding out the two punishment papers in Jungkook and Jin's direction. The two squabbled before choosing the blue paper, Namjoon and Taehyung's punishment.
Jungkook opened the paper and laughed in embarrassment as he read the paper out loud, "'Carry your team member on your back and dance to Fire.'"
Everyone cheered as Jin climbed on to Jungkooks back, turning to watch the spectacle. The music started and Jungkook danced as good as he usually did despite the eldest member flailing on his back. They all said their goodbyes and ended the show laughing and eating with their dancing entertainment.
Once the filming was over, the members crowded Jungkook. Commending him on his strength. The golden Maknae impressive as ever. Jungkook, hyped from the compliments and always out to pester his elders, grabbed Jimin and pulled him on to his back and began dancing to their choreography again.
Yoongi couldn't help but get annoyed at the sight. Hating the sight of Jungkooks hands on Jimin's legs. Jealous of Hoseok's playful pats on Jimin's butt. Annoyed more so that Jimin was smiling for someone who was him. Yoongi yearned to be the only person allowed to touch Jimin.
A sigh escaped Yoongi's lips. Disappointed and irritated by his own jealousy as he quietly slipped away from the group and out of the studio. An effort to gather himself. To calm his brimming emotions.
"Yoongi-ah," Sejin's voice called to him down the hall. "What are you doing out here by yourself?"
"Ah, Hyung-nim. I just needed a break from the noise."
Sejin nodded, handing Yoongi a bottle of water before swapping a few more words and heading into the rambunctious studio to check on the other members.
Yoongi turned, heading towards the elevator and stepping inside.
"Fuck!" Yoongi yelped in surprise as a hand grabbed the elevator doors to keep them from closing.
Jimin stood alone, smiling and stepping into the elevator beside Yoongi. Pushing the close door button quickly to prevent any one else from disturbing their ride.
Jimin brushed the back of his hand against Yoongi's, both award of the CCTV camera in the elevator ceiling, "Today was really hard Hyung."
Yoongi grew hot at the touch, "Really, really hard."
"I really hate paper now," Jimin said shyly.
A smirk tugged at Yoongi's lips, "I hate balloons."
The coy smile that crossed Jimin's lips nearly dropped Yoongi to the floor, "... The blind fold wasn't bad."
Yoongi bit his bottom lip, his imagination running wild about what he could do to a blindfolded Park Jimin. He couldn't speak, afraid his words of perversion would spill out for the CCTV camera monitor to hear/record.
"The members are wanting to go to a club tonight," Jimin said, bringing Yoongi's imaginary porno to a halt.
"I'm sure you'll all have fun," Yoongi replied, a little peeved that he wouldn't have a chance to spend time with Jimin at home.
Jimin smiled, stepping closer to Yoongi, "I'm not going."
At that, the elevator door opened- finally arriving at the ground level garage. Jimin and Yoongi stepped out, their eyes scanning around them for any signs of life or paparazzi.
When he was sure the coast was clear, Yoongi turned his attention to Jimin, "Come home with me." His request sounding more like a demand.
Jimin's cheeks turned pink as he locked eyes with Yoongi, "What will we do?"
Yoongi smirked playfully, licking his lips, "You? Nothing. Me? Everything."