SUNLIGHT. ━━ ( M. CLIFFORD ) ✓

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dear mikey, is mikey your name? your username says mikey but alice says you can't be too careful on the internet

21/04/2015 11:06 am

alice is my friend. we're not best friends, she and i just hang out sometimes. to be honest i don't think we are actually friends. the only reason we talk is because we live next to each other

21/04/2015 11:08 am

i think she secretly thinks i'm weird

21/04/2015 11:09 am

"move over." calum planted himself down beside michael, who was now running his hand through his hair. he had spent the last ten minutes scrolling through all of the messages so that he could read them all in order.

it took ten whole minutes.

he was surprised to see that the messages began back in 2015, three whole years ago. 'this poor girl probably hates me,' he thought bitterly.

"i wanna see too!" ashton laid himself over the two boys, his head in michael's lap and his long legs dangling off the edge of michael's bed.

the boys had all agreed that they would read the messages together, as they were very deprived of entertainment at the moment. this would be a fun experience, right?

"wait for me!" luke yelled from the other room as he held a pizza box under his chin and paid the delivery boy with the hand that was half holding the box and half crumpled to pieces. he entered the room, glaring at his bandmates. "you could've helped y'know."

"i'm busy."

"my leg hurts."

"i have herpes."

ashton giggled at calum's response. luke just rolled his eyes as they all sat up properly and surrounded the steaming pizza box in the middle of the bed. all of them except michael grabbed a slice.

"everyone ready?" he asked quietly. the three boys muffled out responses and michael took a deep breath as he read out the first two messages.

"cute," ashton commented. luke hummed in response.

a lot of people think i'm weird

21/04/2015 11:10 am

to be honest, i think i'm normal. i'm not overly bothered what people think of me. i embrace whatever makes me weird

21/04/2015 11:21 am

"she's so chill, that's awesome." calum grinned widely and michael couldn't help but agree. he took a bite from his slice of pizza before continuing to read.

i lied. that was bullshit, i really do care what other people think. it's actually a really bad habit

21/04/2015 11:27 am

my mum says that i have a need to impress people

21/04/2015 11:30 am

"yikes," luke whispered.

at least i try not to care, thats gotta count for something, right?

21/04/2015 13:54 pm

alice thinks i've scared you away. i haven't, have i?

21/04/2015 21:08 pm

"i-" michael tried to say.

"hey, it's okay," calum wrapped his arm around michael. "we've got to prepare for a lot of this, y'know."

"i know," michael whispered.

y'know, today i feel a lot better than i usually do

21/04/2015 21:13 pm

i should probably mention that i have clinical depression

21/04/2015 21:15 pm

i'm supposed to talk about my feelings but i don't

21/04/2015 21:16 pm

i think talking to you today really helped

21/04/2015 21:18 pm

so thank you mikey, even though you're not answering me

21/04/2015 21:20 pm

"that's it for that day," michael said slowly. calum looked at luke, who looked at ashton, who looked at michael.

"she has depression."

"this poor girl has been talking to herself for years and i bet no-one's helped her at all," calum ground out.

wow thanks michael thought bitterly.

calum, noticing his mistake, quickly added, "i didn't mean- you know i meant-"

michael shook his head. "it's cool, let's just carry on."