something new

The beginning

Hey guys! :) So this is my first story that I ever post here on wattpad so I'm kinda nervous about it, but I really hope that you'll like it . And I'll tell you this before you start to read that some grammar might be wrong and some words misspelled because English isn't my first language but I promise to do my very best to get it right and I hope it won't disturb to much if I miss something :) Anyway Enjoy!

( Nayas POV )

How are you supposed to tell someone that you love em' ? The words ' I love you ' feels like it has a whole different meaning when you say it out loud. I've been terrified to say those words for so long. And now they are the only words that I can think of when someone ask me what I think about you. And I've realized now that I love you. I love you, Heather. I've fallen for you. I'm crazy about you. And I'm so lost and just completely, insanely in love with you. I've fallen in love with my best friend and nothing scares me more than that. How am I supposed to ever tell you?

The time feels like it moves in slow-motion as I count down every second that's left until she's supposed to meet up with me and Kevin for coffee before rehearsals. Gosh why can't the time just move a little bit faster so I can get to see her already. I can already feel my heart pump inside my chest. It feels like it's gonna pump out. Expload . My hands are sweating and I can barely breathe as I look around trying to see her. I notice how Kevin are looking strange at me as I rub my hands against my legs trying to stop them from sweating. But right now I couldn't care less about Kevin. All that is going through my mind right now is Heather, and that I soon enough is going to see her again. The thought of that don't stop my hands from sweating, it just makes it worse. I don't know why I feel like this. I've never thought about her this way before, it's just when we started on Glee we build up this amazing friendship but somewhere along the road I lost track and then one day just woke up and everything was different. And now I can't get her out of my mind. I think that the worst part is that I don't think that I can ever tell her, that I just have to pretend like everything is as usual and just continue by being her bestfriend. friend. That's where I have to stay, no matter how bad it'll hurt. I can't continue with feeling like this. It can't be normal. Not for me. I mean I'm not gay. I've never had the thought about being gay either. Because I'm straight, 100% , always have and always will be. Gosh these feelings have to go away. They have to.