Becoming Cody

beneath your beautiful...

I smile at Mal and put my hand out for her to grab, which she does. I chuckle and lead her to my car, opening the door for her.

"You're such a gentleman." Mal laughs.

"Thanks, I've learned from the best." I respond.

I close Mal's door for her then walk around the front of my car to the driver's seat. I get in the car, making sure to put my seatbelt on before taking off down the street. Mal would always yell at me because I didn't wear my seatbelt. I turn to a random radio station and start singing along.

"Oh my god, your voice." Mal mumbles.

I forgot other than our very brief phone call yesterday, Mal hasn't heard my voice since I've been on testosterone. It has only been a month so obviously there's not a dramatic change, but its something. I smile and take Mal's hand, I'm really surprise that she didn't pull away.

"So where are we going?"

I briefly take my eyes off the road and look at Mal, whose looking at me waiting for an answer.

"We are going to a place where we sit down and a person brings us food we've ordered."

Mal scoffs at my response causing me to laugh.

"You aren't going to tell me, are you?"

"You know me so well love."

The entire drive Mal and I make scarsastic comments back and forth, we use to do the same thing before we started dating. Its one of the main reasons people thought we were dating before we actually were.

Traffic is horrible but thankfully the exit we need to take isn't super far. Mal takes out her phone and records me singing "Too Good At Goodbyes" by Sam Smith. I am in absolute love with this song, I love any song by Sam Smith really. Once I take our exit, the restaurant isn't far.

"Hibachi, huh?" Mal asks.

I nod my head as I pull into the parking lot and into a space. I turn the car off and once again open Mal's door for her. We go inside and get seated pretty quick, since there aren't many people here.

"So, I just want to get this out of the way. We need to talk about us."

I put the menu down and look at Mal. I didn't think she was going to say something so soon.

"Alright, I just have a few questions." I reply.

Mal nods her head and I take a deep breath calming myself down.

"Do you trust me?" 

"Cody, of course I trust you. Its just you know how insecure I can get and I just got inside my own head." 

I nod processing Mal's answer.

"Do you still want to be with me?" 

I look up at Mal but she won't make eye contact with me.

"Babe, if I didn't want to be with you I wouldn't have called you and asked you to come here tonight." 

"Good, because I've really missed you Cody."

"I've missed you more babygirl." 

I lean over and peck Mal on her lips, we're in public and don't need a full blown make out session. Our waiter comes over and brings more people over to our table. The chef comes and we begin ordering our food.  

Watching Mal's expression when the chef starts doing all the tricks is pretty funny. Dinner goes really well, Mal and I didn't really have the deep conversation I thought we would. Which is because there are other people at our table, that's one thing I forgot about hibachi resturants. Once we're done eating I pay and we get back in my car.

"I had a really good time." Mal says.

"Me too."

I look into Mal's eye and realize just how much I've missed her. A lot. That's how much I've missed her. I lean in and our lips touch for the second time tonight. I sigh and put my hand on her side, pulling her as close as I can, which isn't very close since we're in a car. We pull apart and I drive Mal back home, we go inside and head up to her room.

"Where's your Mom?" I ask.

"I'm not sure she was here before I left." Mal says.

I just shrug and pull Mal's body into mine, she wraps her arms around my neck and we put our foreheads together.

"I've missed you so fucking much." I whisper.

I feel a tear run down my face I try to look away but Mal grabs my face and wipes the tear away. I smile and kiss Mal's cheek. Mal grabs her TV remote and we both climb to the top of her bed. Mal puts her head on my chest and I wrap my arm around her body. I get my phone and take a picture of us and post it on Snapchat with the caption, "Back with the love of my life <3" 

"So you have to update me on the changes since you've been on T." Mal says.

"I posted a video on Youtube earlier, its my one month on T update." 

Mal goes on Youtube, and can I just say I hate when people watch my videos in front of me. Its super awkward and I don't know why. I've been getting a lot more attention on social media since I've stared being more active on Youtube. I've literally gotten marriage proposals, which is super weird.

Once Mal is done watching my video she grabs her phone and starts recording me.

"Oh my god, stop. I literally look like a potato." I say covering my face.

Mal sucks her teeth and moves my hands away from my face. I sigh but look up at her anyway.

"You're hot as fuck okay." 

I can feel myself blushing, so I cover my face again. Mal laughs and puts her phone down.

"I like your outfit by the way, Kac picked it out didn't she?"

"Yeah, I needed a little help but I did the bun myself."

"I'm proud of you, normally when you do your own bun it looks more like a matted mess." 

I open my mouth and pretend to be mad.

"Well, damn you didn't have to be rude about it!"

I cross my arms and pout, which quickly goes away when Mal pulls me into a kiss. The kiss turns into a full on make out session and before I know it both of our shirts are off. Mal wraps her legs around me and I start kissing down her chest.

"OH MY GOD!" 

I jump up and grab my shirt throwing it over my head, I throw Mal her shirt and she pulls it over her head. I look up and see Mal's Mom in the doorway with her mouth wide open.

Oops...

"Well, I need you both to come downstairs dinner is ready." Karen says.

"Mom we just came back from dinner." Mal explains.

"Oh, okay. Well then nevermind."

She turns around and walks out the room closing the door behind her.

"I think we almost gave your Mom a heart attack." I chuckle.

Mal hits my arm then puts her head on my chest.

"I love you." I mumble.

Mal sits up and looks at me.

"I love you too, forever and always."