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chapter 31

Rudra POV

I need to talk to soumaya ...I have seen that the is something she wants to say but something or other seem to stop her and know that shivaay bhi and anika bhabhi are not here and family is busy I think I need to take her out so I can find out what's wrong!!!
"Somu....come let's go out we need to talk" I said as I pulled her toward the door,"no..I want to talk now rudra " she said looking nervous which in turn makes me feel nervous because her face says what she has to say is serious, " OK..." I said walking around the garden this is quiet plz and we wouldn't be disturbed here," what do you want to talk about" I asked...she start to go back and forth no saying anything bitting her nails
"Somu!" I said getting worried as I walk up to her "wait...don't come close I need to think" she shouted at me but she stopped after a minute and stared at me
"Rudra I am in love with you.....and before you have a panic attack I know you don't feel the same for me,you have just started to forgive me for what I have done.....and the truth is I also needed a healthier way to forgive you too and also forgive myself for the harm I did to the people I love.....I really love you family but rudra I want to move forward now" she said looking at me like she was looking for something...I really don't want to hurt her again but I don't know what she wants from me," OK...so let's get pass everything and be best friend again that what I want " trying to explain that I already forgive her
"No ...you don't understand I don't want to be your best friend
..rudra can't we put everything behind us and try to be husband and wife" she asked with tears running down her eyes.

I stare at her confused she knows I don't love her so why does she want...OK I'm really confused," I don't understand" I said to her trying not to hurt her anymore than I already have
and she laugh a pain filled laugh
" I know u don't love me rudra but having the feeling I have for you its impossible for me to be your best friend again.....I'm legally your wife but I'm not your wife..... its like being left in the middle of nowhere and its killing me.....something has got to change ,its all or nothing" she looked at me with pleading eyes but all I felt was rage as i looked at her," all or nothing..really soumaya I never wanted you to be my wife and now you are putting conditions to me" I yelled at her feeling a burning anger I thought had passed," do what you feel is right for you but I will never except you as my wife" I said harshly still in my rage...she slowly walked up to me and touched my face with her palm
"I know!!" She said looking at me with an overwhelming pain in her eyes that I was shocked...what have I done?what did I say....I felt shame wash over me " soumaya .."I said trying to explain to her because I have hurt again and I didn't meant too " its OK rudra I understand " she said to me making feel worse.
"I knew before I even asked what you will say" she said crying thru her tears " but I won't have forgiven myself if I didn't at least ask...because I had HOPE that the answer would be different" she said looking at me making me feel breathless and she turned away from me and stare out the garden.

Looking at soumaya now with tears running down her eyes and head held high with pride suddenly I realised I don't want to lose her that why I kept saying I want her to be my best friend....she means so much to me...what she has done hurt more because of who she was to me,my confident,my best friend,MY SOMU and looking at her face now,her determining I knew she was going to say something that will change everything and over and over in my head I kept saying to myself
" I can't lose her...I can't lose MY SUMO!!!but before I can fix everything I have once again broken she turned and looked at me "rudra while I understand you point of view ...I hope you understand mine and that why I can't stay here with you.....RUDRA I WANT A DIVORCE"!! she said breaking my heart and soul.... No no I can't lose her