Scars and Stories { poetry }

hanging onto hopes

– hanging onto hopes

your smile brings a light
into my life that i've never had.
ever since I met you
everything has changed.

and i know you're right.
maybe i'm a little sad
that i can't understand my own blues
even as i've aged.

life went downhill
for a while coming.
yet here you were
and I couldn't help but feel something.

I couldn't tell what was real
yet here you stood
and now i can't help it
over thinking every step i take.

i know that this love would be ideal
and i did all i could.
with change it still didn't fit
and my heart still aches.

so now i stand here
wondering what could've been
while i watch you smile
and laugh at my bad jokes

i've turned a blind ear
as the voices scream
because this isn't my style
and i'm still hanging onto hopes.