Searching for Answers

Chapter 2 - Beginning the dream

"Can you feel your heartbeat racing, can you taste the fear in her sweat"...... My alarm was blasting. I slowly opened my eyes and looked at my phone then realized today was the day my dream was starting. For the first time in my life I jumped out of bed in an amazing mood. I put my phone on my dock and started blasting Motionless In White to celebrate. I left the music playing while I danced my way to the bathroom and turned on the shower. I waited for the steam to start rising over the shower curtain and stripped out of my clothes and kept on dancing as I washed my hair and body and shaved. After my shower I walked into my room and finished drying off then put on my outfit that I had picked out and straightened my hair and did my make up.

( Lexxi's outfit : http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=206137970)

After getting ready I decided to eat a bowl of cereal. I poured some into a bowl with some milk and sat on the window sill, looking out into the sky. As I ate I thought about all the things I had dreamed of and realized this is more than I could have ever of dreamed of. I finished my cereal and washed the bowl and spoon and returned them to their rightful place in the kitchen. I went back into my room to grab my phone and charger and checked my phone. ' 8:53' I read out loud. I shoved my charger in my suitcase and put my apartment keys in my pocket after locking the door. I wheeled my suitcase down the hallway with my guitar being carried on my shoulder and pressed the elevator button. The doors opened instantly and I stepped in, hitting 'L' for lobby. After stepping out of the elevator I walked out the front door of my apartment building and waited for Motionless In White to show up. I decided to put my head phones in. I selected a song and soon started singing softly along.

"Mary Mary,

Bound and buried

Shut your weary eyes

Bloody Mary, Bloody Mary

For what you've done, you've been buried alive

She screams her voice away so she stole mine

Spoke my words but they didn't taste right

It's imitation but I'm not flattered

And she'll never matter in anyone's eyes

Bloody Mary, Bloody Mary

It's not right standing in my spotlight

You can just lay in my shadow if it burns too bright

Don't trip following my footsteps

Or you'll be up to your neck in regrets regrets regrets 

You're just a patched up doll coming loose at the seams

You're just a stitched up puppet chasing someone else's dreams

A sad combination of every single idol you've ever wanted to be but you can't trust me

Have fun sleeping your way to mediocrity 'cause that's as high as you'll ever climb

I'll see you in hell" (song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HJ0AOrz3964)

I was getting really into the song when I saw a trailer coming up the apartment driveway. I turned off the song and jammed my phone and headphones in my pocket and stood up, taking a deep breath to compose myself. The trailer came to a complete stop and the door slowly opened, reveling 6 heads, all chiming 'Hey Lexxi!' at once. I immediately felt welcome and laughed a little harder than I should have. Josh Balz stepped out of the trailer and took my suitcase and took it into the trailer, with me following close behind him. I stepped up 3 steps and looked around. 'Holy fuck I'm in Motionless In Whites trailer' I thought to myself. Everyone started introducing themselves to me. But one person stood out more than the others... Chris. When I looked at him its like I knew him from somewhere, yet I never met him face to face, It was the strangest feeling. Looking into his eyes just felt like Deja Vu.... It was like I had done it before... I quickly snapped out of it when Ricky asked me some questions but couldn't stop thinking about how strange the feeling was when I met Chris, but I brushed it off. Ricky then began showing me around the trailer. We got to the back where most of the bunks were. 'On the left side, the top one is empty so that's yours, the middle bunk is Ryans and the bottom bunk is Vinny's. On the right side, Ghost is on top, I'm in the middle and Chris is on the bottom. Josh is in the bunk up front.' I nodded after he finished speaking and followed him back out to the living area. Ricky, Ghost, Ryan and I sat in the booth talking while Chris, Vinny, Balz and Josh went over the list of stops. I really did feel welcome.. I just felt like I was forgetting something, but I wasn't sure what.