I need you back (sequel to save me)

chapter 78

•Alice's POV•

Niki and I are at the beach having sister time before I have to go to rehearsal
"So how have you been feeling Al?"Niki asked
"Good! This is so fun"I said
"That's good... I told Tyler about the dream don't be mad"She said
"Why would you do that!"I said
"He needs to know Al!"She said
"What all did you tell him!"I said
"About how Cam left and you and him were together and y'all had a kid, that's it"She said
"Oh my gosh. But it's ok I trust him"I said
"You do"She said
"Yea"I said
"Is that why you told him about Jessie"She said
"Yea.. How do you know I told him"I said
"I asked him if you said anything"She said
"Oh.. Oo it's time for the party!"I said
Niki and I went to a house party. She isn't the party type so she stood in the corner as I took shots

"Niki I saw Alex on tv!"I said
"Oh lord not again"Niki said
"I have to call and let Cam let him know!"I said
"Alice it isn't fucking real, Stop begin crazy!"She said
"Crazy? I'll show you crazy!"I said
"What"She said
I got on the counter and started chugging whiskey. I jumped of and ran to another room as Niki chased me.
"Alice Swan!Stop!"Niki yelled
"No you say I'm crazy so I'm gonna show you loco!"I said
I lit up a blunt
"No Al you have to perform in 2 hours!"Niki said
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1 hour later and now I'm getting ready to go on stage
"Al, you feeling better"Niki said
"Yea sorry for earlier"I said
She sighed"It's ok"She said

"Im gonna show you crazy crazy I'm gonna show you crazy crazy Yeaaa!"I sang
"Im tired of trying to be normal I'm driving myself crazy and I don't need your quick fix I don't want your prescriptions just cause you say I'm crazy so what if I'm going crazy  yea I'm gonna show you loco maniac sick kid, psychopath yea I'm gonna show you I'm gonna show you mental out my brain bad shit go insane yea I'm gonna show you!"I said
I haven't eaten all day, it feels like I'm going to pass out
The crowd was going crazy, I smiled and ran off and sat down

"Woah Al are you ok?"Demi asked
"Um yea"I said
"Al I know what you're doing"She said
"What"I said
"I've been there, You've been looking really thin, Tired, and I've heard you purge"She said
"Great"I said
"I'm going to help you through this"She said
"Thanks Dem"I said
She hugged me

We went out on stage and I sang my song catching my breath
I went back stage with Justin
"Alice I have great news!"Justin said
"What is it"I said
"Film director Ron Howard wants you to be a guest star in his movie!"He said
"You're lying!"I said
"Nope, You can even read the email!"He said
"I love his movies!! Wow that's amazing... How does he know who I am"I said
"He saw you your performance in San Diego and loved your voice so he wants you to sing in his movie!"Justin said
"Oh my gosh that's amazing! When do we meet?"I asked
"In a week"He said
"What! But I'm still on tour and I have to model for Vogue"I said
"There all separate dates, on the 6th you'll model on the 8th you'll be on set then the 9th you'll be back on stage to sing"He said
"So I'll be busy on me and Cam's birthday"I said
"Yep!"He said
I sat at a table and started writing my next song
After finishing it I went on the bus and sat at the table with the others

"I just wrote a song"I said
"Lets here it!"Dem said
"Sing it!"Niki said
"And don't do that thing where you make us wait till you sing it on stage"Tyler said
"Haha ok, Ty give me your guitar"I said
I started playing the guitar and sang

"Made a wrong turn once or twice, dug my way out  blood and fire, bad decisions that's alright, welcome to my silly life.. Mistreated, Misplaced, Misunderstood miss no way it's all good it didn't slow me down. Mistaken always second guessing underestimated look, I'm still around.. Pretty pretty please don't you ever ever feel like you're less than less than perfect
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"If you ever feel like you're nothing, you are perfect to me. You're so mean (you're so mean) when you talk about yourself you are wrong change the voices in your head. Make them like you instead, So complicated look how big you made it filled with so much hatred such a tired game. It's enough I've done all I can think of chased down all my demons I'll see you do the same...pretty pretty please don't you ever ever feel like you're less than perfect, pretty pretty please if you ever ever feel like you're nothing you are perfect to me"

"Ahh I love it!"Dem said
"Another hit!"Cam said
"So so beautiful Al"Cameron said
"Cam!"I said and hugged him
"I missed you"He said
"I missed you more!"I said
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We laid in my bed cuddling and talked
"So you're going to be busy on our birthday"He said
"Yea but I'm so excited for this!"I said
"I bet you are! You love Ron's work"He said
"Yep!"I said
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