Trash I Write When I'm Sad II

Why am i always so tired?

Im a war waged against myself

did you know the average time taken for someone to fall asleep is 7 minutes?

so why does it take.me so damn long?
i cant stay still
i cant agree on one simple thing

and when I close my eyes I can feel my eyes panicking
materializing things out of the darkness
voices and faces

because the quiet doesn't like me
she never has
but I need her to fall asleep at night
I need to see her beside me
her head on my pillow

but at night when she's absent
all I can do is lay in bed
and hope to fall asleep
before I fall apart