Trash I Write When I'm Sad II

Hes never going to be mine

Im sorey i left that chat
But it hurt to be in there, and i dont know why
Prehaps its that girl youre dating
And how you never told me about her
Perhaps its because you flirted me up
Just to knock me down
Because you added me to that chat
Just knowing what would happen

Knowing that id see you two flirting
Or gushing
Or cuddling
And knowing that id see
And crumble
And run

Because i didnt know what else to do
And i know i talked about you before
Wondering who'd you see me as in the future
"Shes the one i loved"
Or
"Shes the one i tricked"
And now im certain
That i was tricked
And used
And im certain
That im too afraid to try again
With anyone
Because all i wanted you to do
Was take me home

Yet we built something beautiful
And i got so attached to our creation
But while i was out
You destroyed the damn thing
Because some other girl thought it was lame
And you decided
Building something with her
Would be worth much more

So as i lie sick and struggling
To fix what you broke
I hope that when you realize our creation was better
That you come back

But what i wish most is
That i have the control
And the courage
To say that youre too late
And that ive moved on
Or that i have someone else
Or that i have myself
But i know

Ill crawl into your arms
And fall again