"It's all my fault, it always is."
I think, as my hands start to shake and as I forget to breathe.
I switch off my phone and lie motionlessly on the bed.
I walk around, and drink a bottle full of water without a pause, without me paying attention.
I pace back and forth, messing with my hair and feeling like I want to throw up.
the nauseous feeling becomes more and more.
I can't close my eyes because I feel my fears come before my eyes.
I try to steady my breath a little and start to do my work.
I muster the courage to switch on my phone and watch it boot.
The various colors, swirling around
and finally forming a recognizable shape.
I stare at my laptop screen and hear my phone vibrate.
It is like the flick of a switch.
The feeling to throw up subsides, and the urge is replaced with tears of relief.
I sit down and look at the legs of my table.
One of them is kind of broken and...is it rusty? If it is rusty, I should tell my mom.
No, it isn't rusty. What am I doing here, on the floor?
Don't I have a lot of things to do?
YOU ARE READING
This is me.
RandomHere are a collection of slam poems or short stories about me. Ashley Green. The author.