This is me.

Fear.

Happy New Year, they say. But here I am, 12:57 in the morning, scared as shit. 

I'm not ready.

I'm not ready at all. 

People will die. people will quit. people will leave. 

And the worst part is, I don't know who. I don't know when. 

So I'm just sitting here like a fucking idiot,

As if I can pause time or some shit.