I can never be consistent.
consistently bubbly, full of life,
happy?
It takes all my energy to act normal.
Like a cup, when my quota of fun and enjoyment is filled,
I become tired, smiles replaced by deadpan stares.
A terrible way to end a great day.
I just want to lie down and stare at the wall.
Disappointed at how she must have felt,
when I stopped laughing at funny videos,
when I stopped looking her in the eye.
I told her, she said it was okay, that she understood.
That it happens to her too, sometimes
But I just wish it wouldn't be this way.
How is it to not have constant anxiety plaguing your thought so much that you even see yourself differently?
I don't know
and I don't think I ever will.
If you read this,
I'm so sorry that I acted this way
but
Thank you for giving me those three hours of much needed happiness.
YOU ARE READING
This is me.
RandomHere are a collection of slam poems or short stories about me. Ashley Green. The author.