Once Again ✔️

Chapter 19

Bang!

My hand immediately let go of the box as soon as I see the content inside of it. I was paling more and more and I could feel like I'm short of breath.

It was a swan plushie with a red string attached to it's neck, however it's neck was broken.

I suddenly remembered his words, like a subconscious echoing besides my ear. It was deafening yet all I could think was nothing.

Before I knew it, black spots covered my eyes as I plunge down into darkness.

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The smell of antiseptic greet me, along with the brightness from the lights. White covered walls and a hand underneath the hospital's bed.

He was on my side, sleeping as I take a look at him. His eyes have the occasional eye bags and unshaven face. It didn't diminish his beauty though, yet make him more look rugged and with a perfectly imperfect state.

I tried to sit up and before I knew it, golden brown eyes met mine and sprang up into action and hug me.

I pat him in the back and cough a little due to his tightly hold on me, then released me as soon as he felt my hands nearly slapping him in the head.

"Shit, are you okay? I didn't mean to, I just, I'm just too worried and I nearly went ballistic when your sister called me until the office and told me you're in the hospital. I mean, you faint, again according to her. F*ck, just don't so that again okay, I mean yo-"

Kissing is the best way to shut your partners mouth from rambling too much. I pour all my fear, sorrow and mostly, my unwillingness to part with him through that kiss. Clutching his face and shoulders as I clung to him, feeling like I'm falling off a cliff and he's the hook that keeps me from falling off the ground.

He's the only man I loved, from my past up to my present life.

He's the only man who has seen my vulnerabilities in my toughest time, also my insecurities and handled them with all he's got.

He's my only greed.

The one who will and can accompany me in my darkness and save me at the same time.

If feels like a lifetime after we separated our lips to each other, with his touch and the warmth emanating from his body, I knew it right there.

Everything's gonna be fine as long as he's with me.

"Are you sure that you can come home now? I mean it's the second time that you faint and it's been way too long since you last faint from you panic attack" she talks angrily at me but her face show concern. I know she's just worried sick for me as well as my parents and my boyfriend but I can't held then down.

They still have their life going and there's so much things they had to finish. Hospital sucks too, and that's one of the reasons.

"I'm already fine, see. I can move my hands and feet and I don't feel dizzy anymore. So just relax okay, it's just another phase im going through" convincing her as I moved my hands and feet to make sure she sees I'm in great condition. Besides, I wanted her to badly drop me off already to our house. I don't think I could longer stay here.

"The doctor already permits me to go" adding another reason to let me go, she finally admits defeat. Her lips falt into a thin line and arms crossed down to her chest.

Footsteps were heard as soon as I leave my room in the hospital. Huffing and puffing with a little bit of sweats tricking down his forehead down to his neck, his shirt scrunched up while he looks at me.

"Sorry, uh-the-um,the parking lot where I parked was-uhh-a bit far" scratching his neck in nervousness, I caught sight of his red ears, seems like all the blood rush up to his ears. Trying to smothered my laugh with my palm, but he catch the glint of happiness on my eyes.

"Thank goodness you're here. Tell her she still needs to rest in the hospital" smirking at me because she knows I can't refuse Sebastian. Seems like my sister got her confidant right now.

Shaking my head and mouthing "no" towards him, he just shakes his head and laughed silently.

"I already talked to the doctor and she said she's alright to go" now I'm the one smirking at my sister while she pouted and glare at me.

"I thought you're my partner in crime! You traitor!" Pointing her index finger at my boyfriend while she accused him.

Sebastian just laugh while I stick my tounge out at her. Walking down the hallways of the hospital we leave and get on Sebastian's car.

Opening the windows off his tinted car, I let the breeze wash away all the bad energy on my body. Like the fleeting wind, my problems will probably leave me too. How I wish it's just a normal day with me and my sister arguing about a party and the dresses.

While my boyfriend and me hold each other hands. Stealing kisses along the park and watching movies while he wipe my face off the tears that's like a fountain from the water/ tears gushing out of my eye. Talking about random things and saying I love you towards each other.

I watch his face in the windshield and held my gaze to him. I could never say all the things I wanted to say and say how much he means to me.

Finally we arrived at our house, my sister go first still muttering incoherent words. I gaze towards him and he hold my hand, while his other hand hold my cheeks.

"I love you. Always remember that" while gazing towards me I could feel the love radiating from him.

Leaning on his cheek I held my gaze towards him, his eyes are full of emotions as the sunset illuminated his silhouette. It was magical for me and I can't tore my eyes out of him.

"I love you to the moon and back"

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Sorry for not updating.

I have assignments and a project which is due on Wednesday. Also I'm reading a great book named "The Golden Finch" it was good and I still haven't finish it.

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