Once Again ✔️

Chapter 25

He caught it.

It was supposed to be me.

None of it will happen if it wasn't for me intruding their life. The three of them was always the light, and I was one of the moths who come along and break their bond. And here I am, crying my guts as I ask myself. What have I done wrong? All I did was to love him.

All I did was to love him

Weeks flew by and soon weeks turn into months and I was afraid, no terrified was the more suitable word that I am feeling everyday. I didn't want it to be years, no more waiting.

I want him to wake up.

He was shot near his head although the doctor said it graze him a bit, but the wound is still on his head. They said that he's just recovering himself through coma and he will soon wake up, but what if he didn't? What if he simply think that life is too much and he wants to let go?

If he did wake up, what if he has some brain injuries and make him paralyzed or become a vegetable? Have an amnesia? Those are questions that's been bugging me ever since he got hospitalized. His family hired the best professional doctors and even give him the best treatments in the hospital. I was ashamed myself to look into his family's eyes. I didn't cherish him well, didn't protect him and now he ended up like this.

His family didn't have any I'll intent on me and even hug me so tight I almost burst into another round of tears. His mother and father pat me in the back telling me it's going to be okay. Then his siblings came rushing in, telling me to not give up and also asking me to take care of him and myself. Tears gushing out of me and we all soon burst into tears, the men's shake their heads and hug us.

His friends also came and gave me some flowers and talk to me for a bit. I learned a lot of information about him with his friend and I was like a sponge, soaking up all those information's about him.

Learning about his life when he was working besides his lazy and carefree attitude makes me more intrigued. He was a cold hearted man in the outside but have a big heart in the inside they say. He was cruel to someone who is cruel to him and strict towards his staff. He doesn't like people neglecting theri jobs and people who have bad intentions towards the company and mostly towards him.

He is a professional business man but he's not greedy, he donated a lot of money on charities and churches as well as public schools. His friends leave me for about a 3 hour talking and let us be.

I gaze upon him in a different light. I always know that he's an impressive guy and a kind man but I didn't know this to an extent. Holding his face between my hands, I kiss him in his forehead and let my eyes look at him. I could still feel his body heat and it takes more considerations and mental arguments with my conscience to stop climbing on his body and stay to sleep with him.

"Sebastian, love, please wake up. I really really need you right now. I'll do anything for you to wake up okay? What about our future? What will I do if you're not here wiping my tears when I cry because of Titanic, who will cook me delicious foods, who will rub my back and neck after I paint for hours, who will lectured me about eating in the right time and also, who will love me more than you do? So please sebastian, fight for us. If you don't want to fight then I will. I would go to the depths of the world, sail through the endless ocean and fly across the sky just to see your eyes, your smile. I love you Sebastian always and forever, whether it's in the past or present, you will always be my lover"

I finished saying all of the things I knew I couldn't say even if he want me to. I'm an emotional person but I do get embarrassed when saying things like that but if it's for Sebastian, I wouldn't waste a time and say it over and over again.