Eternally Silenced

Depression, again

I don't understand why this is happening to me...

Why does this darkness control me like it does?

Is it because I'm weak and letting it overpower,

And devour everything I was and used to love?

The depression makes me numb and tired,

And I lose all energy to live the life that betrayed me.

When it takes hold I disconnect from everything,

Like I'm not attached to my body, I feel, not see.

God, and nobody knows!! Nobody can see it,

How can't they see it inside my deadened heart?!

I'm so dead I can't even hear it beating!

If only I had been helped from the start.

Now I'm playing on the edge of the roof,

And straddling the nearness of death.

For in a moment my heart will stop,

My breath ended, with only a single step.

And the people walk on the footpath below,

For nothing's different for those like them.

I truly am alone in this unforgiving world..

I jump. The End.