“Happy no birthday to you...” Naksh sang smiling like an idiot.
“when did my birthday fall on December?” I taunted
“Ever since I wanted a reason to buy cheesecake and throw sense into you that listen to me while I am talking because I said Happy NO Birthday”
“Oh..I hate birthday’s anyway”
“Why Miss. Sinha? You prep for birthday’s so much”
“For other’s, Yes ! For mine, No! I dread mine”
“Because….”he trailed off
And I tell him the whole Pratyush episode.
“That sounds great.” He says after the whole story session
“Didn’t you hear it right??” I become furious
“I did. See nitwit, everything is for good. If he hadn’t done that you would have been still hung over him and I wouldn’t have got an awesome bestie and roomie.” He smiles
“Don’t’ you have any past?”
“I do. But I am not sure if you’ll be able to take it.” he says
“I have been handling you for a year now. I think I can take it Mr. Malhotra.” I smirk
“You already know bits and pieces.”
“Is it Shreeya? I thought she was just a fling.”
“Ya. I don’t know. Maybe I liked- her way too much, that I forgot I should love myself even more.”
“What happened exactly?”
“Well, she had broken up recently. And like and good friend and one side crusher I lent my arm.”
“Shouldn’t that be shoulder?” I laughed
“I won’t tell you the story…” he mocked
“Okay, sorry.” And I switch off the TV and sit crossed leg like an eager kid waiting to hear bed time tales.
“Don’t ask sorry. How much stock you have?”
“Okay, don’t change the subject. Tell !!!!”
“Well, umm..she was recently out of a relationship. And you know heartbreaking it can be ,right?”
“hmm…don’t wait for hmm and oh just tell it already” I scolded
“Yes, so that guy was up to no good. To cope up with the misery I helped her out. She was almost okay, better in fact. Then on v-day I decided to let her know my feelings.”
“Ah..typical dramebaaz.” I interrupted
He gave a sly look “So, I did. I told her how much I like her and she threw a fit. She called me a flirt, a lier and a cheat. Three nicknames all in the same day. For someone who fixed a broken heart, I was too much broken.”
“Damn.” I thought to myself “this guy can even make one cry?”
He smiled like a meek mouse. “It was dark, I was lost, if hard means difficult, then I stood on the peak of hardness, filled with tears and despair. I went behind her for days, and all I saw was a blocked wall and shrill and blunt wounds from sharp words. I'm not over it, yet, not because I'm still in love with her, but because I hate myself for doing so much for her. She's no more to me, she's in love with someone else. Let that be my past, I don't think I have it in myself to give everything to her, again. Let that be that scar. And I don't want her, anyone for now. It'll take a while to remove that scar. But I need someone who loves to open myself again, Ah.. That's not gonna happen, so I'm scarred enough to think of not falling in love again” He sighed
“So you are never going to fall in love?”
“Ah..let’s see it’s a long way to go. Who would want me?”
“What are you Devadas? You are cute, with good sense of humor. You take care so well of friends, won’t you take care of your girl? That girl is going to be so damn lucky.”
“ha ha…nice..” he laughs
“Seriously idiot and also I think you should give Shreeya another chance.”
“Are you crazy nitwit? Never in a million years. I can’t.”
“What if she will get you now?”
“She gets or not gets. Idgaf. I am never going back there. That is one of the darkest spaces in my head.”
“Your wish. Then I will get to say ‘I told you so’.”
He threw the pillow on the floor and left the room, slamming the door behind him in haste.
“what did I say? Where did I go wrong?” I scream from behind, sure enough that he wouldn’t have heared me.
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Somewhere Between Forever and Eternity
ChickLitYou fall in love not with the wrong person, Sometimes with the right Person for all the wrong reasons. This is the Diary of one such girl. Who speaks through words and lives through prose and poetry.
