The Struggles (A Pentatonix FanFic) (NOW CONTINUING)

Why Am I To Do?

*Avi's POV*

I'm still at home with Melissa, Tia, Malia, and Melody. Nathan and Monti just came and they're just sitting here with us.

Nathan is singing "I'll See You Again" by Westlife and I decided to join in. Everyone just sat and listened to us sing.

No one was crying but they were just looking. At the floor, the ceiling, at us, at anything.

Right in the middle of singing, I get a phone call. It's from James.

"Hello?"

"Avi, I think you should get down here", he said.

"Why? What happened?", I said. I sat up and everyone was now just looking at me strangely.

"Something happened to Ashley"

"What happened to Ashley?!"

"She", he hesitated, "tried to kill herself"

"What?!", I yelled.

"I'm sorry. I didn't know until a nurse came and told me"

"Um, okay. I'll be right there"

I hung up and shot out of my seat.

"What happened?", Monti asked.

"Is Ashley okay?", Nathan asked.

"No, she tried to commit suicide", I said.

Nathan and Monti popped up and followed me out of the door.

We got in the car and immediately, Melissa, Melody, Tia, and Malia came running out.

"You're some idiots", Melissa yelled.

"What are you talking about?", Nathan asked.

"Ashley, she's just a little brat", Tia said.

"She'll do anything to get attention", Malia yelled.

"She's an attention whore", Melody said.

"Fuck you!", Monti shouted.

"You all are just jealous of God-knows-what. I just don't get why you hate Ashley so much but you all need to grow the fuck up", I shouted before driving off toward the hospital.

I sped there and we arrived in what seemed like no time. We ran inside and asked for Dr. James.

He appeared from around the corner and we ran to him.

"Where is she? Is she okay?", I shouted.

"Please, Avi. She's fine. Just calm down", he said.

I sighed in relief and followed James to Ashley's room. She was asleep and had breathing tubes through her nose.

She had her right wrist wrapped in gauzes and her heart moniter beeped a steady rhythm.

I walked to her and sat next to her as well as Nathan and Monti. I held her hand and looked at her wrapped wrist. I saw something up her arm and feared the worst.

I gently turned her arm to see marks, scars, and cuts on her arm. Nathan and Monti seen them as well and looked at her other arm.

They were on there as well. Nathan and Monti looked at each other as I just looked at Ashley.

Tears swelled up in my eyes and I nearly fell to the ground in a ball of sobs until Nathan and Monti caught me and palced me in a chair.

I balled in my hands and shook my head.

I could almost literally feel my heart breaking.

"How could I not have known?", I sobbed.

Nathan put his hand on my shoulder and Monti just stood over me.

"There was no way you could've known", Nathan said.

"I should've though", I cried, "I'm with her everyday and she seems fine. I guess I just didn't something right but the question is, what did I do wrong?"

"Nothing Avi", Monti said, "It wasn't you, I'm positive. It had to be something else"

I sighed and looked at Ashley. I sat back and tried to relax.

'What am I to do?', I thought.

I eventually ended up falling asleep.

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*Nathan's POV*

 Avi cried hiself to sleep and Monti and I are sitting in the room and talking.

"What are we gonna do with them?", I asked.

"Them?", Monti asked.

"Ashley and Avi and the rest of the family", I explained, "Ashley's a mess, Avi can't even function or think right, and what will everyone else do with him like that? He's the oldest and if he can't handle this then I don't know what to do"

Monti nodded and replied, "Yeah, I guess your right about that"

"We need help but I don't know who can help us in a time like this"

"Help us with what?", a voice said.

We looked over to see Ashley half-awake.

She finally opened her eyes and they lit up.

"Monti! Nathan!", she squealed.

She was trying to sit up but her injuried arm wouldn't let her. She seethed in pain and fell back down.

Monti and I rushed to her and helped her lay back right.

"Stop, you need to lay down", I said.

She unhesitatedly laid back down and smiled.

"Hey", she said.

"Hey", Monti and I said in unison.

"When did you guys get here?"

"That's not important", I said, "What's important is you"

She looked away but Monti made her look at him.

"Ashley, what were you thinking, doll?", he asked.

She rubbed her face in frustration.

"What's wrong, sugar?", I asked.

She shook her head and replied, "Today have been a hell of a day"

"Hey", I said, "watch your mouth"

"Sorry", she sighed. "I'm just stressed out"

"About what?", Monti asked.

Ashley sort of dozed off after he asked that question. She was silent and just looked at the sheets on her body.

"Ashley?", I said snapping her out of her trance, "You okay?"

She looked at me and back at the sheets.

"Um, yeah I'm fine. It's nothing", she said.

"Ashley", I said.

"What? Really, it's nothing"

Monti and I looked at each other and shrugged. We'll find out soon enough. We always do.

"I'm thirsty", Ashley said.

"Want some water or juice?", Monti asked.

"Um, apple juice please"

We nodded and walked out of the room.