your words don't cut deeper than knives
no they destroy me from within
every blade i drag across my skin
every drop of blood that wells up
every tear i supress
every howl i hold in
my inner wolf wants to howl
to howl away the pain from within
your words are always there
no matter how long its been
your presence in my mind i can't bear
because of this and that and my being fat not thin
so now you ask about my scarred skin
maybe knowing it's because of you
because your words threw me into madness
my heart is exploding from pain
my lungs can no longer hold in every word i keep
my mind can no longer store more data
warnings flash
"cut, cut, cut, it'll empty faster"
my eyes no longer hold back
a set concentration settles and every thing stops
my mind locks
a breath of a moment before i slide it across my skin
a wave of cool air
after months amongst the heat of suffocation
i know it'll scar but i no longer care
the darkness lifts like a raven
that finally flies away
then comes the questions and remarks
the cuts haven't even healed and you hurt me
again
just like that you saw them and now
i realize you don't care
