i know i'm not perfect
and i never will be
no one is like that
even if they pretend to be
i know i'm hard to handle
but no one looks out for me
i know i'm no angel
i don't expect to be
but what should i do
if you abandon me
i need you
even if you don't need me
i'll miss you
when you don't miss me
i love you
even when you hate me
if you don't want my apology
that's fine with me
hurt me as you may
i'm fine as fine as i'll ever be
don't abandon me
even if you lose hope
without you
i can't cope
you are the one
who wanted to help me when it was futile
the one who tried to make me have fun
and enjoy my life even if it was brutal
sorry for saying sorry
a few hundred times
sorry for sounding like a dummy
even if it was for thousands of lines
i'm sorry if you don't want to help me
and sometimes you leave me
i just can't be happy
if the world hurts me
you may say it's all in my head
but to me
monsters don't sleep under the bed
they sleep in my head instead
sorry for writing what you don't want to hear
but don't worry
this won't make you shed more tears
you're not hearing this
you're reading it
and if you don't like it
delete it
if you like it
save it
if you hate it
destroy it
if you want it
keep it
it's for you anyway
if you even want it
and i...
well hey!
i'm alive
aren't i?
