i need you
i want you
i cannot always ignore you
pretend you died
act like i never cared
i cannot stand the grief
which overtakes me
i want the real you
not the monster you apparently are
i want you
i don't want your endless masks
i want
your real smiles and hearty laughs
i cannot pretend you are not there
a ghost of a person i once knew
i don't want to fight
don't want to argue
all i really want
is you
the real you
the person trapped in the embrace of a cold statue
i want you back
even if i have to die
have to fight
to have you
all i can really do
is pray to god for you
i want to heal you
not kill you
i don't have strength to fight
but i have the will to heal
i cannot make you stop
but i can make you feel
i hope
i hope so much
i never had so much hope and faith and certainty
healing you
healing your world
healing you
not killing you
i love you
i truly do
i don't wanna let you go
you don't deserve it
you can't see it
but together we can do it
i just need to show you how
i don't care if we have fights and arguments
i don't care if i wanna die
i care about you
and that is all that i need
it is my fuel
my hope my faith in the unknown
i am going to save you
before you drown
i will not relent
i will not stop
even if all i can do is pray
i will not cease to do so
god is my only hope
in him i have faith
don't know how
don't know why
i just know i gotta heal you
before your mind destroys you
i can't kill you
i can only heal you
i can save you
i will do it
i always will
love you
