Goodbye...Tracy Beaker

'Hi mike..' 💞

MIKES POV

I decided to leave Cam to it she said she needed to be alone right now and while I didn't believe her I accepted it and left her to it

I head back to the dumping ground and a home that was once full of laughter and happiness is now a place of silence and grief.

I head to the office ginas gone away to check on her mum she didn't really care about Tracy..

Well not as much as I do it seemed evident as I chuck all the files in the bin I angrily tear up the office why her?

Why someone like Tracy?

HOW was this fair!!

She never hurt anyone!

And the ONE time she tries to help someone new it costs her her life!!!

I sit down at her desk,her stuffs still in all the drawers putting my head down on the desk in despair a light appears in front of me so bright I'm forced to open my eyes

I lift my head up when I hear a knock at the door I open it to see Tracy stood there smiling a faint glow around her I look at her in shock

'Hi mike' she says her voice still the same her smile still the same I stand up in disbelief

'Tracy..your here?' I say still unable to believe it

'I guess so' she says smiling I go over to her and she shakes her head

'mike..you can't..' she says

'how are the kids?' She says after a while of silence

'they're not taking it well Tracy..at all' I say to her desperate to take her hand but one touch and she's gone she's made that clear

'mike I'm so sorry' she says

'it's not your fault you were trying to help' I say to her she blamed herself for everything

'listen..this is going to be hard as hard as it was going to the light and leaving you all...I had no choice mike I tried to open my eyes but I couldn't..but you can and you have to stay strong..for the kids..for Cam' she says weakly smiling

'I can't tracy I can't deal with this how am I supposed to move on knowing your gone' I say to her she takes my hand as best she can and sits down

'please mike stay strong..think of me as I was' she says to me but I can't all I see now is her being pushed down the stairs her scream echoes in my head over and over

'forget that happened..it's the kids you need to focus on now' she says,she must have read my mind

'I think you should find some way to say goodbye to Cam' I tell her

'she doesn't believe in ghosts your seeing me and hearing me because you want too' she says

'mike...I'm running out of time...I just want to thank you for everything you were truly like a father to me and I won't ever forget how strong our bond was..is' she says to me I smile we're both near tears

'I never told you how much you mean to me mike..you were pretty much the only reason why I would get out of bed every morning when I was living here it was hell but you made it that tiny bit better' she says to me I smile

'it was my pleasure from the day I met you Tracy you were a little nightmare but I wished all the happiness for you because you deserved it more than any of the others..you had this spark in you that no matter what you did to push me away I would always come back' I tell her

'you know the day you left? It destroyed me I was stood drying glasses with the others and I could have thrown one at you I was that angry' she says to me

'thank goodness you didnt' I say laughing she chuckles back

'point is there's only a few days in my life that defined hell for me..the day I went to see my mum and she'd forgotten my birthday...the day she left me...the day Justine came to visit' she says I Chuckle a little but she stays serious

'that day was horrible mike whatever Justine said about me all the kids would laugh which was just about bearable..but then you would join in and that really broke my heart' she says to me

'Tracy I'm sorry I didn't know it would upset you that much' I say feeling guilty

'and the days that you left...when I was the reason you lost your job...and the day you left when I was a kid' she finishes and I take her hand

'I'm so sorry' I say to her she shakes her head

'don't worry about it it's in the past now the point is you gave me so many memories I will cherish forever starting with those kids..each of them unique and special they've left a mark on my heart that I won't ever forget..and you..you gave me a lifetime in 6 years and for that I will be forever grateful' she says wiping her tears away and standing up as a glow surrounds her

'no not yet we haven't had time!' I say desperate for her to come back i take her hand

'mike..you need to let go of me think about the kids they're your future..you've been like a father to me and it's very rare I tell you I love you...but I love you so much..dad' she says

'I love you too' I say back to her she prises her hand gently out of mine floating through the open door and going slowly upstairs I follow her but to the kids it would look like I was alone..

that's if they didn't believe of course.