Shades Of Ivy

missed call

One late Monday evening I sat in the warmth of a coffee shop
My tongue stinging ever so slightly at the temperature
A book nestled in my left hand while my other dug into my pocket
Finally over a heartbreak I'm once again living life, at least I think I am

Sitting in my usual spot like always from two long years ago
My eyes unconsciously linger over to the empty space in front of me
My lips press together into a fine line as my eyebrows furrow
Turning away I shift my gaze to the glass window in our booth

That innocent smile that shows your dimple on your left cheek
Buried in a mahogany fur coat and snow dusting those lovely red locks
Standing across our favorite coffee shop I see you in flesh and blood
The Christmas lights on the streetlight bringing back memories

My legs refuse to move, the book falling from its once strong grip
Shoulders tense and mind racing as confusion and pain painted my face
I've seen so many dreams where we'd be normal, even one like this
Tears blur my vision and my lips tremble not ready to lose you twice

You wipe the snow off your head and it fell onto your shoulders
Those small hands slip into your pocket and you pull out your phone
With a smile you put it to your ears still standing there like my angel
That melody I thought I'd never hear again danced in the air

My hesitating eyes fell to my ringing phone that read incoming call
With watery eyes I scooped the device into my palms and looked up hopeful
Still with a smile and your phone to your ears you nodded
Before I could even do anything you slipped from my life again

Your scream filled the frosty air as the alarm went off on the truck
The drunk driver in the front seat threw open the door and fell out
Your body pressed against the pole of the streetlight made me run
In only a turtle neck and skinny jeans my boots dug into the snow
My body fell by your side and I watched in horror as you left me
Again but this time, you left me for good right in front of my eyes

You have one missed call