coffees + jeno

xliii

（   JENO   ）

Today's Sunday, and I'm planning to surprise Lilac since she's been practicing non-stop this week. Before class, after class and at her vacant times, she's practicing. I brought some stuff to ease her tiredness. I want her to feel that me being here won't make her more. . . tired.

Bago ako pumunta sa condo niya, dumaan muna ako sa Starbucks at bumili ng dalawang kape. Isa para sa'kin at isa para sa kanya.

Just thinking about her makes me smile. Damn it, I'm way too in-love with her. Is it bad? No. Definitely not.

Nag-drive na 'ko papunta sa condo niya. I checked if everything's here. McDo, lilacs, coffee and pillows. Perfect.

I went to her floor and unlocked her door swiftly. Birthday daw ni Suzu Hirose ang password niya. I only date people in the Philippines who knows Suzu Hirose. Mad respect for my girl, by the way.

Binuksan ko ang pinto at agad kong nabitawan ang mga hawak ko nang makita ko ang nasa harap ko ㅡ si Lilac at si Harris na masayang nanonood ng NBA. At. . . nakahiga si Harris sa mga hita ni Lilac. Haha, fuck.

Agad kong sinarado ang pinto ng unit niya at nag-elevator pababa. Ayoko nang bumalik dito. I don't need explanations. Friends don't act like that. If you're taken, you won't let other people do that to you. It doesn't matter if no one's looking or not. It doesn't matter if I'll know or not, because she. . . has my trust. But why did she do it?

I drove back to my own unit, overtaking every vehicle I see. I'm too pissed off to care.

Another thing is she's been too busy these days, not that I don't understand her ㅡ I am also a student-athlete! But why does Harris get the privilege to see her at such times and I don't? Best friend? That's bullshit.

I stopped at Seattle's Best Coffee, hoping to soothe myself. I need to calm myself down. Letting my anger conquer me is, by the way, the worst decision I've ever did in my life.

A coffee in my hand and thoughts swimming in my mind, I flipped another page in my book. Ironically, it's about having time for each other even at their busiest days, not giving room for anyone else but the two of them. How I envy that, Nicholas Sparks.