My Kik-Ass Boy Girlfriend (BoyxBoy)

Nine

I'm sorry. This chapter is crap, but this is where the fun begins! :D

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The past week has been so depressing. Not only did I find out that Martin was actually attracted to Jenna, who was a year younger than him, making her two years younger than me, but it also led to the realization that I can never be with Martin.

Ever since that day he walked me home, I have tried my best to stay away from him, but he continued to try to make friends with me. It was especially hard when he also stayed true to the fact that he likes Jenna. I’d see him hanging around her all the time. Any more and I’d actually be dead from the pain.

They would sometimes sit together during lunch, walk together through the halls, hug each other, laugh with each other… Need I go on?

It’s really hard to just quit talking to someone, you know? At some point, I’m going to end up having to talk to them anyway and it ruins all the hard work I’ve put in ignoring them. Is it worth the effort? Yes and no.

For one, I still get to enjoy that short time of being free from their attention. But then again all was for nothing when you absolutely have to talk to them again. I was really not up for it. However, Martin was persistent. When he wasn’t with Jenna, he was with me and during those times, all I could think about was what he’d been doing with Jenna when I wasn’t around.

Martin and I weren’t together, but I couldn’t help the jealousy that I was feeling. Before I decide to let this strong jealousy take over me, I needed to find a distraction. One that would divert the hurt so that I wouldn’t feel it anymore, but I was at a loss. Where could I find such a thing?

What’s ever worse is that in English class today, we were asked to work on a group project and the teacher chose who gets to be in which group. Unlucky me gets paired up with Dana and Martin. As I’ve said, it’s useless even trying to avoid Martin because as long as we’re in the same school, I can never truly get him out of my life.

I felt a light tap on my shoulder. “Hey, Jay! Why do you look so down?” Mina asked. I shrugged and looked down on the table. I had a thought — that maybe, just maybe, if I were to let my secret out in a controlled way, that I might actually find some prospects for an ideal boyfriend.

Clearly, Martin wasn’t for me. As much as I wanted him to be, he was interested in someone else. I couldn’t compete with that. Especially if he was straight.

“Oh, c’mon, just tell me,” she said. I sighed deeply before contemplating on it. Mylene knew about my secret and she’s a trustworthy friend. Mina was best friends with Mylene, but I wasn’t quite sure if I could trust her. I did anyway.

I leaned over closer to her ear and whispered, “I’m gay.” There was a faint gasp, but other than that, no reaction. I pulled away from her ear and checked to see what kind of expression she had on  her face. Her eyes were widened.