I thought about killing Jason ass I hated him with my guts I thought about even killing myself I was too the point where I couldn't take it no more I had cut marks on my arms and my legs mostly .. i thought about it every day how could I be so stupid I didn't even know him like that but he was just so fine and I couldn't resist naw fuck that fuck him Istg when I catch him I'm killing his ass! I was fed up with sitting around being depressed all damn day so I called my bestfriend tavia and ask did she wanna go out and I could tell her what happened and why I haven't been myself lately.. I got In my car and went to pick up my bestfriend she got in and said "Hey girl I miss you " she stopped and looked me up and down and said" Uhuh girl what's wrong u don't even look like yourself no more " I said " tavia I fucked up I really fucked Up " Tavia said "what you do now girlll" I stopped and took a deep breath and said "I lost my virginity tavia 🤦🏽♀️ to a boy I barely fucking know I tried texting him and he blocked me I texted him off my sister phone and he told me to leave him alone and he don't want nothing to do with me" tavia wiped the tears I had coming down on my face & said " What's this nigga name What was you thinking Amber why would u do that you not even like that " I said I know Man I Wasn't thinking I was caught up in the moment but his name Jason and he go to our school when I said his name her mouth dropped and said "Jason with that blue Mercedes?" I said yeah with his fine ass Tavia looked at me and said Uhuh girl the biggest hoe I know of Shidd i could of told u that was going to happen I wanted to slapped tf outta her but I ain't even say nothing i just started driving until we got to the mall ... we got to the mall & I bought these cute heels and I bought a dress to match we went into footlocker for Tavia Tom boy ass and I looked up and saw Jason my heart was beating fast I saw him with another girl she was cute I give her , her props but she wasn't cuter then me he saw me and hurried and looked away Istg I wanted to make a
Scene in this mall but I kept things cordial and walked up to him and asked "Why tf u blocked me I didn't do shit to u " he looked at me like he was disgusted and said " man get tf away I told u I ain't want nothing to do with yo ass I got a girlfriend Gtfo" then he yelled and said "Jazz come on I'm ready" I looked at him and the bitch he was with and thought so this that bitch he was texting I told Tavia and she didn't even seem to fucking care i started thinking twice about telling her ass shit even tho that was my bestfriend ... we got got back in the car I drove her home .... weeks went by and i can say that i got better day by day not being depressed as usual it was a Saturday and I sitting on the couch all day watching tv until I heard a "ding" coming from my phone I looked at it and it was a text from my bestfriend it read "amber we need to talk" I replied and said "what's wrong pooh "? She hesitated to tell me but she finally texted back and said " I Know u might get mad at me but me and Jason Fuckk last night" i dropped my phone my mouth drop and I started crying ! Just as i thought things was getting better ..How could this bitch do this after I told her what he did to me ! At this point I wanted to kill Her ass I wanted To kill Jason , Jason knew that was my fucking bestfriend Istg niggas not shit i didn't even text tavia ass back cus she knew she was fucking wrong
