Random poems

Ranting

I don't write anymore

I don't have motivation anymore

I feel so down all the time 

I feel happy when people talk to me 

but sometimes everyone's busy 

sometimes I don't even try 

sometimes my attempts shouldn't have been made 

I feel so lonely up here 

I have one friend 

One friend that  we don't text 

we don't hang out 

I have people that call themselves my friends 

but where are they? 

the rest of my friends 

they're too far 

wife and coinage live two and a half hours away 

wife has boyfriend and coinage so she's okay

boyfriend lives 5 hours away- soon to be much more

best friends live 18 hours away 

everyone is so far 

everyone is so busy 

everyone has lives 

I sit here unmotivated 

I watch tv all day 

I play with my ferrets 

I work 

soon I'll go to school 

I don't want to do anything right now 

I want to be held 

I miss being so wanted that they wanted to see me every weekend 

but everyone is so far 

its impossible

I just want to sleep for a long time 

I'm always so tired