Ellie
My name is Ellie Thomas, and absolutely nothing exciting or meaningful has ever really happened in my seventeen years of life. I've never been in any pageants, I don't have any talents, I've never won the homecoming queen title, and I most certainly have never had a great tale of love and heartbreak. In fact, aside from a few dates with guys that my friends set me up with, I've had a pretty nonexistent love life.
When I say friends, that's a bit of a loose term. All throughout elementary, middle, and high school I've drifted from one group of friends to another, never really finding one that stuck - one where I feel like I belong. Making friends isn't hard for me but keeping them is a different story.
Guys think I'm chill and fun until I won't let them shove their tongue down my throat or a hand up my shirt. Girls like me until they realize that I'm not in to being mean to others or partaking in their petty drama. I don't go to a lot of parties, I'm not into casual dating, and I prefer to read over cheerleading. I'm a bit of a misfit and I'm okay with that.
Not only can I never find a place to fit in at school, I also never feel like I belong at home either. When my parents finally announced their separation a few months ago, it was a relief. The constant arguing was becoming too much for all of us and with my dad spending more time at his office than at home with us, it sort of felt like they had separated long before they painfully sat me down to tell me what I already knew.
I'm convinced I saw it coming before they did, so when my mom announced that she and I would be moving to the neighboring town while my dad stayed behind, I wasn't sad. I wasn't upset to be starting a new school or meeting new people - I was ready for it. I was nervous, but I was ready.
No matter what I do or say though, my parents can't seem to grasp the fact that I am totally okay with everything, that I am one hundred percent fine with our family breaking apart and leaving behind everything I've ever known. My relationship with them both has become even more strained than before, and I feel even less like myself, so why not just go with the flow and see where this new path in life takes me? Its not like I can change it right now anyway.
I'm tired of feeling life my life is incomplete, like there's a void. I feel like a stranger to myself, like I am always hiding parts of myself from the world. I feel boring, insignificant, and in no way special. I'm ready for something real and exciting to happen.

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Teen FictionMy life felt incomplete, like there was a void. I felt like a stranger to myself, like I was always hiding parts of myself from the world. I thought that I was boring, insignificant, and in no way special. Everything was falling apart or blurring in...