In another life time || Bang Chan

Épilogue

It's been 2 years since I sent that text to you.

Well, tried to send that text out to you.

I always wonder, why'd you change your number?

Better yet,

What would've happened if the message went through?

The curiosity always gets to me. I might as well be the cat curiosity killed. Except, I'm not dead & still wondering.

I moved to France & dropped out of college.

Okay, I know it sounds bad, but you yourself taught me to live & try new things, so here I am.

A semi known artist in Lyon France. (I'm still getting there.)

Are you proud of me?

After I tried texting you & it failed, I took it as a sign of "it wasn't meant to be", so I turned in my cheap iPhone 6 for an iPhone 8.

Something different.

A fresh start.

I definitely did get some sort of fresh start.

I became more open & friendly at NYU.

I started saying "hi" to people more, left my little studio apartment more, made new friends, had a few relationships here & there.

But they weren't you.

It's okay though.

Live a little, is the motto.

Remember when I said, people don't change for people?

Okay, so I may have lied. Not entirely though, just in my perspective.

I changed, because you inspired me too.

Inspiration is a beautiful thing.

It makes the mind do wonders. Nothing is original, but once you create something from something else, it holds value because what you make of it.

Just artist quotes.

But you had the biggest impact on my life in one week, that it's obvious I fell in love. I may not have noticed then, or even after a year, but at 22, I know I did.

Even though I found someone else now & he makes me just as happy, he's still fallen a little short compared to you.

Who am I kidding?

I don't think I'll ever find myself another Chan.

I'd be lying if I said I don't think about you from time to time.

I do.

But I know I can't dwell so much on the past. Even if I miss it.

Even if I still miss you.

I googled your Instagram a few weeks ago after I lost your info because I got a new phone.

Your user name is still the same btw.

Not surprised.

But you're doing well.

I'm guessing I was right about you because you dropped your psychology major. Also you & your 2 friends are going full force producing music.

I'm proud.

It's successful too. You guys travel from time to time, to hold concerts & fan meetings.

Sometimes I wanna go.

Oh, & you're dating someone too.

Congrats.

It's a little bittersweet to see you with someone that's not me.

But who am I kidding?

You deserved the world back then & you still do now.
I hope she doesn't bring you the heart break I brought you.

Do you still think of me though?

I can't help but wonder.

Maybe, maybe not.

Remember when you asked me about fate?
If I believed in it?

I think I do, but maybe it wasn't our time.

Maybe not then, & maybe not now.

But maybe in another time.

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Ahdhahshshs, it's finally over :((( I got sad writing this, but not once did I cry, so that's good ((:

I'm rlly surprised with how fast I produced this story like oKaY, it took me like less than a week.

So it may be rushed? Or I was just that inspired?

Either way, I wanna say ty to everyone that has read a little bit or has read this whole story.

& to all my friends so supported me writing this ajdjsjsj (yk who u are)

& one last time, Ty for reading <3