It became something conventional. Something repeated like a routine for him to be met with different looking ceiling every now and then. The first seconds of being woken by the forgotten events before this, was the different colored ceilings looking down at him
It felt strange everytime, always having the first thought in his mind being if he was alive right now or just laying peacefully in his deathbed.
But even though it became something usual for him and his closest ones beside him, he was still having the unwanted scared feeling deep in his heart
They didn't understand how scary it was waking up everytime in his once comfortable bed, not remembering what had happened and why there were concerned eyes staring down at him.
He was scared to know that one day maybe he won't be seeing the ceiling, he won't be seeing his closest by his bed, the happy relief leaving their heart when they see he's open eyes staring back at theirs
He couldn't help but have that constant feeling that he hated so much, despised to be more exact. Everyday and what felt like seconds he was scared to be woken up like that again
But he didn't tell anyone, to afraid to bother them with more concern with his constant fears of never being able to see them again
So he kept it locked inside, cause as long as he do that everyone will believe he's going to be fine
He wished he would believe it himself
The clock ticking was bothering his thoughts as he was laid underneath the white covers in his bed. He had woken up a couple hours ago, being surrounded by his friends and Jimin familiar warm embrace
They had stayed with him for a while, staying by his side while the clock was passing away. In the end he's constant thought was screaming at him to let the others leave him and go have fun with the others at the camp
So he told them to go, that he was going to be alright by himself. Convincing them that he was more at ease alone, that he would fall into a deep slumber faster if they were to have fun and leave him under his cold sheets alone
They did
After what felt like an hour of arguments, they finally accepted what he wanted and left with a warm hearted smile through the door
But it wasn't what he wanted
He's heart was longing for someone to stay by his side, because he was afraid of being left alone In an empty room, constant thoughts about being drowned in an never ending sleep. Never being able to open his eyes again
But what his heart wanted didn't matter. He loved his friends to much to let them stay with him, seeing their smile drop with every second they were to see his state. He couldn't handle it no mater what
So he let them go, against his heart
He let them go, because he promises to stay awake until they come back
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CAMP | KOOKV
Fanfiction[JJK x KTH] Who knew a school trip to a camp would change a lot between the students on the way home again Taehyung had cancer and Jungkook wasn't the best guy neither was his group of friends. The stars are beautiful over you. •Top Jungkook •Bot...
