I can't seem to get the words out that I need to say.
I miss you every single day.
i thought things would be better this way
I had hoped that,
If I didn't see you
If I did't hear your voice
That I wouldn't miss the way that you held me
But I do.
And I cry, and wonder why
You hurt me.
In more ways than one.
There were times when we had fun
And you'd make me smile and laugh
But you never made it last.
And I would look into your eyes, not to see love.
But hurt and despise
You felt pain inside,
And you'd never tell me why.
One day you opened up
You cut
Your heart open and spilled out all of it's contents.
You were vulnerable then.
You didn't want me to see you like that.
But you were my first.
My first love and I didn't want to give up.
I didn't want to give up on us.
But it turned out to be a lie,
And every time I cried
Was just a waste of time.
Because was effort put into something
that meant nothing.
But it's okay.
It never mattered anyway.
The way I felt and things I told you
They were true.
But now, I'm turning blue
From lack of oxygen.
My lungs were filled with the hate you gave.
And it infected me like a disease.
And I begged you, please, don't do this to me.
Don't push me away like you always do
Don't hide the inner truth
And what you don't understand is
I live in my head
And most days I wish I was dead.
And it's only from the pain that occurred
regarding you.
I lie in my bed looking at all the places I have bled
I'm still in my head.
Where no one can hurt me, no one can desert me.
They can't
You can't feel my pain,
And I know i'm all alone again.
They told me how it was supposed to be
But now do you see
What you have done?
You pushed me to my edge
the edge of insanity
And soon enough I'll be gone.
Gone from you.
I can't keep trying
I can't keep wondering what I do wrong
I sit here and ponder in my thoughts
Craving the truth of the unknown.
And while I may not even want to think about you,
you keep crossing my mind.
It's like the waves keep crashing down on me
And I never have the chance to get back up.
And I'm scared here, under water in the cold darkness-alone- I'm always alone.
VOCÊ ESTÁ LENDO
Affliction
PoesiaThese are poems and things I write off the top of my mind, they're actually pretty good you should read them