My letters - jachary

Letter 1

Hey this my first letter.
You probably won't ever read this, but I want you to know I love you.
You never knew that cause I never told you.
But here I am now writing you this.
It may be to late but you need to know.
Or maybe you don't and I just to need to get it off of my chest.
It's been 2 months now and I still am crying everyday.
The boys try and tell me that it will be fine but it won't be.
It won't ever be fine.
The one thing I wanted to tell you I never did.
I hate my self for that.

"Hey. The foods ready" corbyn said and I shook my head no.

"I'm sorry I'm not hungry" I said. That's a lie I'm hungry but I can't eat.

"Are you sure? You haven't ate in 4 days" corbyn said.

He always worries about me. Always has.

"Corbyn. I'll make him eat later. Don't worry bud" Jonah said walking into the room.

"Okay." Corbyn said and walked away.

"You need to eat" Jonah said

"Is not hungry" I said and he shook his head.

"You are going to eat later whether you like it or not" he said and walked out.

Why can't I get over this pain.
It'll never go away.
3 months and I'm still like this.
3 heartless broken months.