•Forming Tears•

• Day 47 •

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"Remember when I told you I loved you?" He says looking at me, his hands painted with dark red blood as he tightens his grip on my shoulders.

I look at his dark eyes, as they stare back at me. The longer I look into them, the more the hair on the back of my neck stands and makes me shiver. My breathing gets harder and my hands start to shake and sweat. I rub them on the side of my jeans that cling to my long legs.

The same jeans that I wore that night.

"It was funny of you to give me a reply that would cost me my life." He says, whispering to me as he lays his head on my chest.

"You took away from me my life, my family and everything I loved. Even you. I loved the person that would soon stab me in the chest, don't you find it funny Ellie? Cause it's quite humouring to me."

"I was going to meet my ill mother for the first time in 15 years after being adopted Elizabeth,15 long and painful years."

"And you knew that." He cries as he weakly punches my chest. "But you still did it. You stabbed me and ran after I told you to call for help. You didn't look back." He grabs a hold of my shirt as he looks up at me. The only light coming from the light bulb shines over his tan face as the rest of the room is pitch black.

"It was an accident...I promise." I stammer as I dig my nails into my sides, nervous and scared.

He laughs a humourless laugh, no emotion in his eyes. He stands up straight, takes a step back and tilts his head to the right, his brown stubble in the same shape as it was that night. He had readied himself for the most exciting moment in his life, his soft pink lips fall into a straight line, the silver studs on his ears sparkle  and he takes a step front, towards me.

He leans in to my right ear and whispers, "Your accident wasn't an accident. You murdered me, you were conscious and you knew what you were doing. And look at you now, wandering around shops and buying yourself pretty clothes with that kid, eating and drinking whatever you like and being absolutely free and happy whilst I lay under the ground and in cold dirt, my limbs unable to move and my heart with no beats. Aren't you happy?"

"What do you want me to do Alex? How can I go back, how can I make you forgive me?" I say as tears fall from my eyes, unable to look at him.

"I want you to come to me. Lay under the same ground that my only and ill mother buried me underneath as she cried herself until her last breath. But you didn't know that did you now?" I look up at him, my eyes meeting his, steel like cold emerald eyes. Thousands of things running through my mind.

I...I killed her too?

She's dead?

She's dead because of me!

"And before that, you should announce that you murdered your ex boyfriend of four years, Alex James Diggory."

My heavy breathing stops as I look up at him, stuttering as I speak, "Will...you really forgive me then?"

"No, I wouldn't, I can never forgive you Elizebeth Garner but don't you think it'll make me feel better to have you under the same soil than to know you're living your life out there?" He crosses his arms as he stares at me.

"Why do you keep thinking that I'm happy Alex? I really am not. Im living as if everyday will be my last. I'm living in my past that has effected my present. I'm living a life that haunts me and pains me every single moment. I can't even look at myself in the mirror anymore, all I see is a murderer holding a bloodied knife. Alex I'm in so much pain, I feel so much guilt and so much hatred for myself. I don't know what to say or feel anymore." I say as the tears fall out of my eyes, blurring my vision.