Fish Lips (LokixReader)(Soulmate Au)

Chapter 15

The asshole had the audacity to look amused while his arm was bleeding. It just made me even angrier.

"Someone gonna take the gun or let her shoot his head off?" Clint asks.

"Let me shoot his head off," I mutter distastefully as I bring my other hand up to stabilize the shot to the head.

"Don't," Thor voices.

"I mean I don't mind if he's dead," Tony says while Thor gives him a look, "but I guess keeping him alive is better."

"(Y/n) just come here. We've apprehended him, you really don't have to do this," Natasha consoles. I look from those horrid yet magnificent eyes to the group.

"Ok, (y/n) just give the gun," Clint sighs, getting up and walking towards me.

Bang

Clint jumps back to his spot as Loki winces at the second puncture wound on his arm. It hurt me but it also felt nice. I didn't want to hurt him, I just wanted him to love me back. But I was angry he did that to me, he deserved it.

"(Y/n)...." Steve trails softly as he takes a few steps forward.

"Careful she might shoot you this time," Clint whispers.

"No...(y/n) wouldn't hurt me....right?" He asks, slowly inching towards me.

"Steve go ba-ck," I say, hating myself for wincing.

"Look here. Loki's a bad person. He's was bound to do this, forget him. Forget your time with him," Steve tells me. I look to Loki and see his furrowed look change into a smirk, his blue eye sparkling as he did.

I straighten my pose, just having to pull the trigger on him.

"Remember the night we spent together!" Steve yells.

"What the fuck?" Clint whispers.

"You two slept together?" Natasha asks for, her spot. I swallow the lump in my throat and give a small nod.

Why wasn't he fazed ? Why wasn't he mad that his soulmate slept with someone else?

My chest felt heavy, I could feel the petals pushing against me, wanting to be out. But not now, not here...

Steve was close enough to me now that he could push down the gun. I let my arms drop, emotionally exhausted.

"He doesn't even care...." I whisper quietly that the others couldn't hear it.

"I do," Steve says, resting his arms on my side.

"Face it Steve....we just use each other to forget..."

He doesn't say anything. Not because he was shocked at what I said, but because he knew I was telling the harsh truth.

"I'll meet you guys outside," I tell them and walk out.

*Mini Timeskip*

I lean against the stone railing observing everyone around me. Loki was standing with a muzzle on his mouth and I was doing my best to avoid his gaze.

When I got out before them, I coughed out as much petals as I could, some whole flowers as well. Was it time to let them know about this?

'No (y/n)! Look at them, their happy. Don't destroy their joy over something stupid,' I tell myself,' Yeah....they were happy.

I look and see Natasha whisper something to Clint, Loki in front of them. Through the space between them, the gaze of his eyes was enough to make those petals grow back.

"You good?" Tony asks, coming to my side. I nod with a bitter smile.

"Actually, Tony I-"

"Farewell everyone," Thor says, grabbing the end of the cylinder that held the tesseract.

Tony walks up to them and I slowly follow.

I put on a smile; my problems shouldn't ruin this happy moment.

Loki grabs the other end and with a twist of the cylinder they're gone.

"Finally we're done," Clint sighs.

"Ok then see you guys the next time the world needs to be saved," Tony comments and heads to his car, Bruce following him. Tony stops then turns.

"What were you saying?" He asks me. I wave my hand to usher it's nothing.

"You coming with me or back to base?" Steve questions.

"Back to base," I respond.

"Well then goodbye," he says with a smile and hugs me. I hug back and then watch him ride away.

"I'm taking a jet back, you guys coming?" I ask the other two.

"I'll enjoy the victory a bit," Natasha replies. Clint agrees with her and I nod, turning and walking away.

*Timeskip*

"You're back," Fury says as I walk into the helicarrier. I nod and bite my lip. Should I tell Fury at least?

"Can I speak to you?" I ask.

"About what? You and Cap sleeping together or something else?" He questions. Hill's lips twitch up and I look down.

"Nevermind then...." I sigh and walk past them.

"Hill give us a moment," Fury commands. She lets out a 'yes sir' and I hear her steps echo away.

"Now, what is it?" He asks. I look around to see other agents walking about.

"Let's speak in your office," I tell him, turning around to meet his eyes....well eye. He observes me for a moment but then shortly nods. Walking past me, I follow him.

"Now if this is some love confession I decline," Fury mumbles as I close the door. I internally gag.

"Ew no the fuck?" I ask.

"I'm lighting the mood..." he grumbles as he sits down. Wow is the problem that obvious that Fury lightens the mood?

"Now are you going to speak or not?" He asks.

"I have a problem....about me," I start off.

"You have many problems, how is this one different?" He scoffs.

"It's my health," I continue.

"Then go to a doctor," he replies.

"Sir, as kindly as I can be right now; please shut the fuck up and let EXPLAIN!" I yell. I didn't need his fucking commentary to mess me up even more.

He doesn't reply for a while.

"Get out," He simply says.

"Fine....but let me leave a small gift," I tell him with a bitter smile. I bring two fingers into my mouth and go down as deep as I could.

Instead of puking out what I ate, like a normal person. I gag out a white flower, some petals having speckles of my red blood on it.

I look at his shocked face with red eyes.

"Have a good day," I mumble toss the flower on his desk before I walk out.

"Agent (l/n), return to my fucking office," I hear Fury say sternly as my hand leaves the doorknob. I take a deep breath and walk back in.

"First, I want this shit off my desk before I throw up. Two, explain what the fuck just happened," he says. I grab the flower and throw it in the trash, using some water from a water bottle on his desk to wet a napkin and clean up the drops of blood on his desk.

Afterwards, I sit down on a chair. Here I fucking go....

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Ah! I can finally start writing this one now! I'll try my best to upload weekly. Also can I express the fact that I had a history test Monday, SAT Tuesday, and a physics quiz tmrw? Like tf man? Let me rest my brain for a bit my God....